And I'll take on the world.
This is me,
Whole again.
Taking every new step,
Conquering it without you.
This is me,
Holding hands with someone
Who wants to keep me,
Cherish me for who I am.
This is me,
Forgiving you for the hurts I've felt.
This is me,
Thanking you for letting me go,
Discovering a life I'd never imagined.
I am blessed that you let me go.
Truly blessed, to had you in my life.

My filthy eyes, they're getting kind of dry
Your mouth is filled with lies... but I don't really know

Reason, it's fled, in wake of the pounding in my head
I need you but you're gone instead and I'm feeling quite hollow


You're the one that I never see
but I'm the one who's a ghost
It feels like you're not here for me
when I need you most


I love you, and I love you, but regardless I feel dismayed
I love you, and I can't blame you, yet I feel I've been betrayed

I have to wonder
when do you think of me?
is it when you are free?
alone and let be?

I have to wonder
what is it that you see?
what keeps bringing you back to me?
what makes you stay throughout the color changes of a tree?

I have to wonder
are you afraid too?
of what we might lose?
That must be why I keep trying with you.

I have to wonder
if the ceased "I love you"s and "good night"s are results of that fight.
If it's me that's losing sight
or if it's you that's crashing this flight.

I have to wonder.

the difference between 2017 and 2018 is

in 2017 i met you
in 2017 i fell in love with you
and in 2017 i lost you
and in 2017 i must leave you

in 2018 i no longer have but a memory of you
in 2018 i have myself and layers of trauma i'm not too sure me and my friends are ready to deal with yet

in 2017, you were You
in 2018 you are now Him

he does not deserve the privilege of You if He didn't recognise the privilege he had when he had Me.

when i see you my heart
fills with happiness
and i wish
you could use me
as your mirror

If I smile will you see it?
If I compliment you will you understand it?
If I look down on you will you notice it?

If my love fades away
Will you ignore it?

Will you please listen to me?
Will you please stop me?
My love

If my love were to die tonight
Will you forgive me?