I want to be the last thing on your mind
before you fall asleep
I want to be the first thing you think of
as you open your eyes

but

...

you only text me when you're ******
looking for a good time
before you fall asleep
you only call me when you're drunk
in the middle of the night
when all you can do is open your eyes

one.
two.
three.

why’d you leave me?

four.
five.
six.

it’s indeed our last kiss.

seven.
eight.
nine.

i lied when i said “ i’m fine “

you used to drop everything
you used to hug me for days
you used to like listening to me vent to you
you used to always find time for me
you used to brag about me to all of your friends
you used to bring me flowers
you used to surprise me
you used to take me on dates
you used to enjoy our time together

now i come last
now i force hugs on you
now you never listen
now you're always too busy for me
now you complain about me
now you say flowers are a waste of money
now everything is expected
now we never go out
now we fight

i don't know what to do
can you please help me
figure this out
i want this
i hope you do to
but i don't know
if we can

reach out
thats all i want
reach out to me
are we in this
forever
are we making a mistake
are we sticking through this
what are we doing

i need you to talk to me
what is happening
i always feel like I'm out of the loop
now
but
i want this
i think

i don't want to lose you
everything reminds me of you
i love you
i want only you
but I'm scared
that I'm the only one who wants this
the way that i do
so tell me
what do we do
now
time is almost out
so tell me if so are we

you keep feeding yourself
little lies about him
wishing one were true
just so you could have a reason
to get over him
but you can't
because no matter
how bad he hurts you
you hold on to the old him
and he's gone
he's been gone
but you failed to see that
and you fell more and more
in love with him
clueless to the fact he was
falling in love with someone else
allowing yourself to get hurt
but you keep falling
and falling
and you still
can't
stop