hosted by most
of the demons
You know,

I say farwell
to your sorrows,

No longer will
I fall into
your shadows,

I wont cry
in your sleep
nor will I linger
in the water
when you drown

My footprints
wont be visible
to your eyes,
I wont enlighten
your tears when
ever they fall
at my ground

Gone away


Leaving my
broken wishes
on your pillow

anxiety
the fight with in

theres no where to run
theres no where to hide
you try to fight it
you try to hide it

no one can see it
no one can feel it

no one can see the pain your going through
you look fine on the outside
but no one can see you on the inside

you smile but deep down theres a fight with in you
no one else knows
just only you

you get in a panik
but theres no where to run
theres no where to hide

a little voice inside is saying help
but no one can see it
no one can feel it

you smile to try and hide it
you smile to be stronger
you smile to fight how you truly feel

but when your alone its there
no one to help
only you
theres no where to run
theres no where hide

theres no quick fix
only time can heal

anxiety
the fight with in

18 minutes

And I have daydreamt of you
Each of the 1080 seconds passed,
Contemplating how I want to be
so much better than your last.
Come on
Lets get lost in each others eyes
While we forget the dark horrors of our past
Don't back track baby
Let's sit in this sunny moment and
Bask
Just like the sun
This burning desire won't go away
If you're with it, I am as well
You know I'm here to stay.

30 minutes

And I've come to realize that
I can't even stand to be away from you,
for 1800 seconds.

"This is not normal."
That's what I said when I felt the sudden jolt in my heart.
You're making my heart beat abnormally.

"This is not normal."
What my mind speaks whenever I'm smiling for no reason.
I know. I look stupid that time.

"This is not normal."
I muttered when I caught myself staring at you.
My eyes saw what perfection means.

"This is not normal."
When I wanted to have you even in my dreams.
I wanted to be with you all the time.
I couldn't last a day without your presence.

"This is not normal."
When all this time I'm hiding something from you.
I'm afraid. I'm scared that you're going to leave me after that.
I don't want to lose you.

"This is not normal."
You're the only person I'm not afraid to tell everything.
Not afraid to tell everything except for one.

"This is not normal."
This is no longer me.
I'm so in love that it changed everything.

"This is not normal."*
I had to stop.
Because I know what we have now.
Is all temporary.

I'm so tired of getting trampled on and ******* by Life
Unless it was a woman, than we can alter that statement
Cause what guy wouldn't want that?
Not to be crude or tacky, but if somebody named their daughter Life
Then this poem has a reason to exist.
But as of right now, my ignorance and struggle persist.
I hope you can understand at-least the gist
Of what i'm trying to say.

My chest has been hurting
And I don't know if it's
A medical issue or an
Emotional issue.