Millie

Apr 2018

notthepoethewantstobe

If you were feeling like it was so right,
Then you most probably ignored the wrong.
If you have never had to have a fight,
Then you kept anger in to get along.

If you have never cried like this before,
Then you had never opened up your heart.
If you think none will love you anymore,
Then you should know that now is when you start.

If you’re alone unable to explain,
Then you are stuck in someone else’s head.
If you think that despair is part of pain,
Then you should love somebody good instead.

The man you loved before was fraudulent.
A worthy man won’t hurt you with intent.

#narcissist #love #recovery

Millie Apr 2018

My tall, dark, handsome lover

How do you see yourself from my eyes
my tall, dark and handsome lover
my strength when I am weak
the light that pulls me out of a sunken place
wouldn't it be beautiful if that was all there was

But you don't see the veins under your eyes
thirsty to unleash a rogue when teased
a rogue that demands the admiration it does not give
protecting its baby, your ego, with aggressive commands
showing no mercy for all in its way until fed and satisfied

I tease to ease the grim aura
so what happens when I am all thats in the way
stuck with the responsibility to nurture and feed the rogue
showering it with forceful respect and unwarranted apologies
a dynamic you validate and see no fault with

my history gives you confidence and insolence
to believe that I can handle a shove from a lover
because I have handled several fists from my brother
forgiving my trespasses and outbursts
to accommodate your impatient temper

An unstable pain stuck with with your thirsty ego
reminding myself that I deserve empathy and understanding
you are my tall dark handsome lover
but I have run out of the strength to nurture your baby
so I have to find the strength to walk away

#ego #lover #break #up #violent #partner #toxic #relationship

Apr 2018

Cherisse May

9:55 pm

Maybe it's the alcohol
Running through my veins
Seeping through all of my pores
Invading my skin, crawling,
Leaving a trail of heat and numbness.

Maybe it's my mind
Trying to twist myself into
A wringing mess, unconscious,
Undesirable for the current society
Whose words weigh millions.

Or maybe it's just me.
Overthinking, in a dark room.
Laying there, paralyzed.
Contemplating. Typing. Thinking.

Tap,
tap,
tap.

I'm tired.

But I've stopped moving.

#poem #notes #dark #weird #writing #tired #sad

Millie Apr 2018

The power of self-love

it is easy to love
when you aren't loving yourself
so many flaws that can't be overlooked
in the pursuit of being and doing better
love that ends up emptied into another soul

the undermined power of this little factor
is all that's needed
to set boundaries
to find a voice
to build happiness
and hope for the future

a power that is easily savoured
and easy to get lost in its pursuit
a pursuit that can turn into a wander
with a deep compassionate soul

a self taught power
that has to be taken not gifted
free and important
but hard to master

#confidence #self #love #esteem #power #strong

Apr 2018

Nylee

Power of the smile

The more it hurts
The more I smile
because the smile has the power
To make it useless.

#nyee #smile #power #more #hurts #pain #smiling #useless

Apr 2018

Zoila

Gold Coin

You are not a gold coin.
You see, a gold coin is liked by everyone
but, not everyone is going to like you.
Even those that smile in your pretty face
will sometimes talk crap like it’s their place.
But Darling, never let this get in the way.
Not everyone is ready to hear the things you need to say.
Not everyone will capture the love you spread.
Who cares if they like you or not.
Who cares if they are nice or not.
Everyone is at their own evolutionary path
and if you want to do anything meaningful in life
your job isn’t to judge other’s path.
Your only job is to be YOU.
Your only job is to spread love and light
by speaking your truth.

#self #confidence #be #you