Tyrannical Bastard: Favorites

Jun 2015 Tyrannical Bastard

Chaos

I've begun to hate
The sound of happiness
It breaks my heart
Cuts my skin
When I hear a laugh
Or see love
So I drown the noise
To avoid the pain
Of seeing and hearing
Everyone else's happiness
When I clearly
Have none

Jun 2015 Tyrannical Bastard

What if I don't have a dream?

Jun 2015 Tyrannical Bastard

Chaos

What if I don't have a dream?

follow your heart
follow your dreams*
That's what they tell us
We are told to search
For the thing we love
The thing we live
The thing we breathe
And once we find it
We will work hard
We will do anything
Just to get it...
Everyone has a dream
At least that's what they say
Right?
We all have something
One little wish
That turns into one big dream
But what if we don't?
What if we don't have a dream?
What if there is nothing?
What if we don't know?
I don't know what I want
I don't even know who I am
So how can I follow my dreams
And my heart
If there is nothing there?
What am I supposed to do...

Jun 2015 Tyrannical Bastard

Dark, Hopeless World

Jun 2015 Tyrannical Bastard

Chaos

Dark, Hopeless World

That girl
With the sad, tired eyes
Sitting alone in the corner
She's over her life of emptiness
And she just wants to leave

That boy
With the gloomy, grey cloud
Following him wherever he goes
He's finished with his life of darkness
And he just wants to disappear

Those people
With the falling apart lives
Breaking slowly piece by piece
They are done with feeling like this
And they just want to get out of this dark, hopeless world

Jun 2015 Tyrannical Bastard

Already Alone

Jun 2015 Tyrannical Bastard

Chaos

Already Alone

I can see
The stares
The looks
I can hear
The whispers
The thoughts

The pity
The sympathy
Is written
All over
Your faces
The relief
The gratitude
That it's
Not you
Is right there

You think
I can't see
When you
Turn away
You think
I can't hear
When you
Cover lips

I'm already
Hurting
Don't you
Think it
Would be
Better
If you
Just didn't
Treat me
Any different

But why
Does it
Matter
I'm already
Alone and
Cold and
Crying
Nothing you
Can do
Would make
This any
Worse

Jun 2015 Tyrannical Bastard

Elements

Jun 2015 Tyrannical Bastard

Nicole Dawn

Elements

The elements and I
Have a special connection

Earth:
I feel as though,
I am six feet under
Every day and night

Wind:
The gale's greedy fingers
Push me slowly
Toward the edge of the cliff

Water:
The strong ocean
Pushes me under
Continually

Fire:
The beautiful flames
Lick my skin
Slowly burning me to ash

I have a special connection
With the elements

#suicide #sad #fire #die #water #earth #burn #wind #drown #elements

Jun 2015 Tyrannical Bastard

Maybe

Jun 2015 Tyrannical Bastard

Nicole Dawn

Maybe

Maybe if I'm strong enough
I'll break away
From this world

Maybe if I'm thin enough
I'll slip through the cracks
And be free

Maybe if I cut enough
I'll bleed the bad out
And be happy for once

Maybe if I try enough
It will actually be okay
Not fake like now

Maybe if I cry enough
I'll make an ocean of tears
And swim away

*Maybe

Maybe....

#suicide #sad #cry #escape #maybe #selfharm

Jun 2015 Tyrannical Bastard

Failure

Jun 2015 Tyrannical Bastard

Nicole Dawn

Failure

You must be perfect
Never mess up

Be beautiful
Never average

Be smart
But not too smart

Be silly
But not ridiculous

No you're too fat
Too tall
Your hair is too frizzy
And what's with the bangs?

What are you thinking?
You look like a nerd
You want to look smart
But not that smart

Idiot
You're far too quiet
Be louder
But not so loud you're annoying
You'll never fit in

Just be perfect
Don't make any mistakes
Oh wait
It's too late for that

You stupid human
You're too human
You're supposed to be perfect
It's what everyone expects
But you're failing miserably

#suicide #sad #life #lost #society #failure

Jun 2015 Tyrannical Bastard

Friends, Enemies, and Yourself

Jun 2015 Tyrannical Bastard

Nicole Dawn

Friends, Enemies, and Yourself

Keep your friends close
But your enemies closer

It's a good rule
But here's a better one:

If you want to survive
Keep 'em all at least
An arms' length away

Because if you let them in
When they leave
And they will leave

It just might **** you

I know from experience

#friends #sad #lonely #yourself #safe #survive #enemies

Jun 2015 Tyrannical Bastard

How To Make Poetry

Jun 2015 Tyrannical Bastard

Nicole Dawn

How To Make Poetry

To make a poem is simple
All you need is

Nights of tears
A bit of blood
A lot of pain
A touch of peace
Heaps of feelings

All you need is

Pure exhaustion
Fear
Anger
Love
Sadness

All you need is

A whole load of
Emotion

Then when that explodes
Out of your body
You just need to somehow direct
All of it onto
A piece of paper

That's how you make poetry

Not that I would really know.... To all the true poets, I'm sorry, I don't mean to be cocky by assuming that I can write poetry. I know that I can't, I'm just trying to summarize how I write, no matter how bad it is

#love #poetry #sad #pain #tears #poems #create

Jun 2015 Tyrannical Bastard

Thanks, But No Thanks

Jun 2015 Tyrannical Bastard

Nicole Dawn

Thanks, But No Thanks

Thanks,
But no thanks

I don't want your wings
I don't want to fly

I've been dropped on my face
Too many times

So thanks,
But no thanks

I don't want to soar
I don't want to own the sky

I'm scared of heights
You see

So thanks,
But no thanks

I don't trust you
And I never will
So just leave

I have trust issues

#trust #sad #lonely #alone #fly