When was the last time i felt emotional and teary eyed?
The last time i felt like a real human?
When was the last moment i tried to captivate my dearest thoughts?
That moment I felt irrational..
When was the last time I seek for wisdom, coffee, book and warmth?
The last time I tickle my guitar and sing with all I am.
The last time I treasured the serene sound of the air
And sat on the most tip edge of the boat..
The moment I watched the perfect blue skies..
Still myself in the middle of the sea..
The last time I burst in anger of my own faults..
And laugh at my own self’s stupidity..
The last time i fell in love with someone..
Felt compassion for the lost to the point that
I no longer seek my own good but the good of those people I love..

I guess I’ve become mechanic for some time,
And forgotten that I am still living a human life..
I walk and talk when said, i have done this and done that myself,
All is required to be done by sched..
Yhis is whats filling my head instead..

"Am I still human?" I asked myself,
As I rise and take a peek of myself in front of the mirror..
I saw my full body reflection..
Still having my heart locked up inside my body’s rib..
And my skin still stitched with me, protecting my innermost being..

I bit my lip as i ***** myself,
A big grin started overlapping my face..
With all conviction I said,
”I will be a human today! for I am a soul in this living body!!!”

i miss..
his cute sleep poses..
coming in and out of the window..
the way he meows whenever he asks for food..
sneaking and sleeping inside my brothers bedroom..
his fluffy stretched belly..
how he interlaced my feet on the way to kitchen..
welcome meows when i got home..
carrying him like a babe thou he’s too heavy..
overdosing him with cat food..
our exchange meow languages..
the way he smells like cockroach like most of the time..
but i still kissed him..
bites & scratches..
how he loves the way i scratch and massage his body..
lie down everywhere, end up cleaning the floor coz..
he’s like a thick rag and a mop at the same time..

hope he’ll be home soon..
or i’ll overdose him with cat food and he’ll die of my kisses..
hope our neighbors didn’t have the intentions ..
to cook him coz we’ll have him for dinner
as soon as he got home (joking).. ^^
i miss you cat, you made me cry ..-__-..
please come home :’


p.s. lea is waiting for you, she’s now skinny thanks to u :<

Stop pretending that anything was that easy
So easy that is not even close to easy at all..
Sometimes it keeps me wondering
How long it takes me to finish something
When other people were just saying like
"Oh, it just took me a while."
You know how bad it makes me feel?
Wondering if I'm just slow
Or those people got super powers??
And I ain't got any?! wt..
But let me say this..
People of this human world!!!
You have to be honest sometimes
That you have gone through a lot of things also
Till you end up to where you are now..
It's not gonna pull you down
Or will erase you from your hall of fame or something..
Instead it will inspire others so that they can also do the same things..
That it can be possible
And can be acquired!
Let's say, Yes, you are more talented than most of these people
But isn't it more good to help each other out?
Than just being there alone in the spotlight?

Struggling is pointless, as I am chained by myself.
With these weary scraggy arms, I threw the key as far as I can.
I didn't know what got into me but all I knew was I am "trapped".
I long hid under the shadowed wings of someone elses sweet lies,
Spoiling my innocent mind.
Torturing me gently with their alluring soft whispers.
All the while, without me in my conscience,
They're taking away everything that is mine.
Grabbing all that they can have
While I was enjoying the fact of being blind to their tricky traps.
I don't feel that I am already paralyzed
Because it felt like I am in the fullest of my beautiful sleep.
But when I woke up, I can do nothing about it at all,
Either will I get back all my belongings,
For I had been cheated.

You’re a book yet to be red
Words left unsaid
A diamond soon to be discovered
And a tale one day to be told
A right to be defended
And a promise ment to be broken

Don’t judge me with the book I’ am holding,
Don’t criticize me if I desire to gain wisdom.
When curiosity wraps my head down to my feet,
I know that I am in need to be filled
The fear of lacking ensembles me..
Growing in intelligence entices me..
To be a a woman than a lady encourages me,
To be a person than a human changes me..

Salamat kaibigan, hndi mo ‘ko iniwan

Ikaw ay aking karamay at aking sandigan

Malayo pa ang tinig ay iyo nang naririnig

Alam mo ang pintig ng aking puso at dibdib

Bigat ay iyong inako upang ako ay makatayo

Inalalayan ang aking bisig, lakas ay iyong tinig

Ikaw ay parang isang estrangherong hindi naghihintay ng kapalit

Saan ako makakahanap ng isang tulad mo sa isang saglit?

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