I am busy
Without any rest
I am happy
Happier than I have been in a long time
I'm finding where I belong and where I am called
Every day I find more truth, more life
But you, old friend, seem lost
You don't seem to want to talk
And I've rarely seen you in the last six months
I don't know what's wrong
But people still constantly ask me
"Where is he?"

I didn't want to do it today
Didn't want to ruin today
But I couldn't lie to you
I'm sorry
But this is what is right
To me, at least
I know you are sad
That you don't want to hear from me
But I do care
So I kept my promise
I expect you to keep yours

It was just getting good
I was enjoying myself
My escape
But now I'm back to reality

I don't want to be home

I've thought
I understand
I hope
I'm right

It's not to be taken lightly

It's easy to take the easy way
Easy to pretend that what is, isn't
Living without a care because you don't believe in caring
Dying without a care because your life didn't matter
You made it to the roof, but you kicked away the ladder
It carried you up, but you say it isn't there
How does that work?  Don't ask me
Because I'm wrong, right?  Listen
You know it's right but you choose left
Walking away because it's easy, that road leads to pain
To death and burns, cuts
Rainbows fade, unicorns aren't real, but it sure is fun to pretend
Right?
It's fun to write nasty things, fun to offend and upend
Fun to push and pull, throw rocks, fire shots
Chainsaws don't give a peaceful sound
Guns hurt your ears, harsh sounds
It's merely a sound, but harsh sounds can break your ears
Harsh thoughts can break your mind
Thoughts of death can bring it, hasten it
No need to be chasing it.

Hiding never helped
Hiding only hurts
Because you forget you're hiding
You just think nobody cares
Instead, stand up
Throw down
You own this place
You own this earth
You deserve just as much as others
Don't hide, because you won't be sought
Seek, for you may just find what you want

TheOmnipresentTreeStumpHurtsForTheTrees

I awake
And I reach for
You
But I feel only pillows

The rain is here
You want to drown
But there is light
On the horizon

Sticky wet heat
Clothes are so gross
But there is cooling
On the horizon

Doubting my existence
And fathoming things bigger than us
But there is peace
On the horizon

Stress and tests
Useless work
But there is Summer
On the horizon

I love deep talks
About science, philosophy
But the aftermath is bad
I feel small
Useless
But with my faith
I am also small
But I am part
Of something larger
Unfathomable
Unquestionable
And good.
I'm so confused
But it'll be okay
Because even if philosophy and science make me
Insignificant and subjective
My reality is defined by contentment
Service
And love

What does a nightlight do?
What is it?
Not the children's kind
No
The person
A light in the night
The warm lamp in the dark room
The one who hugs you when all seems lost
The one who, when lost, cannot seem to find themselves
So the darkness needs to unite
We need to unite
To rekindle the nightlight's bright

She is so amazing
So beautiful
So smart
So interesting
But she doesn't think she is.

Well, you see, throughout the princess's life, she was attacked by little goblins.  She could usually fight them off, but it took her days sometimes.  Well, when she took the warrior in, she went into the kitchen to try and find something that would help him.  Of course, the door was left open.  A huge goblin, one of the biggest ever, seemed to wander in.  She heard it and froze in place.  The stomps were getting closer.  By now, though, the warrior who couldn't see the goblin was regaining some balance.  He got up and swing his sword around a couple times.  After one swing, he had accidentally beheaded the beast.  There was blood all over his sword and he didn't know what happened.  The princess rushed in when the stomps stopped and saw the monster lying dead.  The warrior was inspecting it as it became visible, nobody could see the goblins before.  She ran and hugged him for his valiant act, but it was an accident.  He was just happy to have been in the right place at the right time.  As she hugged him, her weakness started to show through again.  She was so happy to be protected, she hadn't been before.  She didn't want him to keep wandering.

Once upon a time, there was a princess.  Though she was always playing with the boys, she really wasn't boyish.  She was beautiful, the most beautiful in the land.  Everyone noticed, but nobody ever said anything.  None of the boys ever told her they loved her because she was just too good.  Sadly, she only thought they believed her to be ugly.  Nobody seemed to appreciate her, so she became more and more rough.  When her body was too different in places, she couldn't do that anymore.  Instead, she became a very bold person and tried to scare everyone.  She wanted to seem strong, even if she was weak.  One day, when she was an adult and had moved out, a wandering warrior happened upon her working in her herb garden.  He was so struck by her beauty that he could hardly stand, so he leaned against a rock, hoping to get his balance.  He never really caught it again, though, and she worked for several hours without seeing him leaning there.  When she got up, though, she noticed him.  She rushed over to help him an brought him inside, unaware that her sheer amazingness was what was weakening him.

It soaks you to the bone
It gets in your socks
It gets in your mouth
Your eyes
Your shirt
It's dark
It's cold
It makes the day seem like a waste
But
It isn't all bad

It encourages the starting of fires inside
It encourages closeness
It encourages blankets
Candle-lit power outages
Or the watching of movies
It makes plants grow
It feeds the birds
And, of course,
It makes YOU happy

Take my hand
Take my hand
Don't fall down to
Your neverland

You're falling and you'll
Never land
So take my hand
Not neverland

We'll make it grand!
Completely grand
So take my hand
Take my hand

I'm uncomfortable
Anxious
And I don't know why
I don't know what is wrong
But I can't fix it

Say,
Do you ever walk away
And hope you'll be pulled back?

You leave
Because
You guys are unwilling to be
Kind
But I guess
You were always about the easy way

I walk this empty road
I know not where I am going
And I forget from whence I came
And I am glad

I am glad for solitary emptiness
The radio is naught but static
I have music around, but I hate it
It makes me remember

These wonderful ruins
This beautiful decay
I relish my thoughts
Even I do not understand them

Sometimes I see another wanderer
I see the trail left behind
The art and the terror
And I pity

This end is just a beginning
This death is my life
For some, this is hell
But heaven is a state of mind

My debt has been paid
Unspeakable crimes, I'm guilty
Still he died for me

I don't think about it much
But
You really do care.
I don't think I try nearly as hard
And that makes me sad
But I just want to say
You make me happy

I'm officially crazy
Both about you
And otherwise

A cheap shot
Kicked where it hurts
Is exactly what this feels like
Stabbed in the back
And in the front
Images that make me see red
To forget and forgive
I'm so angry
But I can't let it out
Don't want to hurt those who I care
About
I don't know who I blame
Maybe myself
I'll put these feelings away on the shelf
In some drawer
Lose them
And try to be selfless

Be hopeful
Because that smile
Might be right around the corner.
All you have to do is
Find it.

I have nothing to say
Nothing to write
Nothing to feel
No, not anymore.
Everything has changed
My eyes are open
And I want to close them
But what I've seen can never leave

I see the cycle
And well, it is terrible
When will this crap end?

The day gets worse
I am angry for some reasons
Guilty for others
And my optimism for later is gone
I hate this

I don't cry often, but
I feel too close

This storm will blow over
And it'll be alright
I think I'm ready to try

I am exhausted
Body and Soul
And yet
Struggles continue

I just want to sleep

It's getting warm out
I can enjoy being outside
The only issue
Short-shorts are in season
And I'm blinded by the pasty-****-white legs
Filling the school

Overbearing heat
No snow in sight
It's perfect
My element
I am home

The sun is always welcome
Beating down on me
Pushing the sweat out
Tearing off the gloom
I am seldom happier
Than when I am in the sun

Sometimes running
Sometimes in the shade
Sometimes herding
Sometimes wanting to play

Always happy

All day
Fog
Clouds
And I still found
Great things
I am beginning
Again
To trust in the lord
And to know what is right
And why

The other guy
Deceives me
Makes me worry
But I know where to look
To find peace

Today I feel useless
I lay in bed despairing
Time crawls when you're sick

I feel really ****** today
Headache and stomachache won't leave
So I think about you

I miss you, you know
"I don't want you to go!" It
Makes me miss you more

I am learning to trust
God will not forsake me, never
Never been so at peace

I read a book here
She would be really proud of
Me, doing what she likes

I think that all I
Need to do is talk to mom
But I will be angry

Sometimes I don't know
What I should do
Will it hurt somebody?
Maybe I'll just stay in bed

Why does music always have to
Be self expression or support some cause?
I just want to relax when I listen
Not consider my life
Or at least, not always

Become part of the mindless masses
Be secure in your lack of identity
And then wake up when you are brave enough to be insulted

And here I sit
Refreshing my email
What do I expect?

Why is it empty?
Has it been emptied?
Or has it just not been filled?

What is your happiness?
Mine is

A hot day
Forever
Shared with my love

Games to play
Without any price
But not illegal

Parkour
To my heart's content
With very little risk

Anime to watch
With all the time to finish them
And all the seasons to come

I could go on
But tell me
What is your happiness?

All death could ever ask for is life
All hell could ever ask for is heaven
All hate could ever long for is love
All the earth could ever want is the sky
And all I could ever want is you.

The unending fall
Without a beginning
Is no fall at all

Nobody falls
Without jumping
Or being pushed