In your mind it seems
It's already done
You must've thought of it a thousand times before
And in your head, the consequences ended
When the real process was just getting started.
You say that you accept that I'm angry
Say that you know how I feel
But you're unwilling to take the consequences that come with my anger
That come with the way that I feel.
Do you have any idea how much I want
To scream at you?
To tell you what I really think?
The only problem is
I hate to see you cry.
And you certainly would.
My parents are divorcing, officially divorced now. I believe that, to my mom, it has been over for a long time. This makes me want to yell and scream at her, or at least say something. I want her to feel remorse, to know how much EVERYONE is suffering because of HER. I was able to talk to my older sister today about it, and it really made me think about my mom's state of mind, etc. I think in the process of finding herself, she has become lost. She moves from thing to thing and embraces it fully. I've seen this with running, natural remedies, yoga, boxing, drink mixes, work... She is always into something and it's odd to think about. I don't know if it has anything to do with the situation, but... Argh, I don't know! ... I'm going to sleep...