I'm completely nothing compared to her...

I know I’ve been
a handful person,
a mess
and a pain in the ***.

You know that
I’ve been through a lot
and keeping my guard up
for a lot of reasons.



*but please.. don’t let me go.

I'm tracing your name again
On a sheet leading to wonderland
No wonder I never get enough
The guy who caused me such pain

Your existence still lurks on my mind
No wonder I'm thinking about you
Everywhere I go, your scent is there
Everywhere I hide, your voice calls me

My heart is still aching every night
But you are the only one I yearn for
Those embrace that's keeping me sane
No wonder I'm still in love with you

Been holding this rope of forever..

but every grip I do,
I get wounded.
I get broken.

Should I give up or keep on holding?

**No one knows.

You were once my poetry
with every word describing you
but now you’re no longer a part of it
you’re now a masterpiece I never knew I’d write

Upon the precipice
Between the two of us
I see the darkness
Eyes like black veils
Curtains that cut through to
The void inside of you
The one I have to
Stars shimmer
Dreams simmer
Set to a soft boil
As we toil in our despair
One day I will meet you there
For now
I set the scenery
Put poetry between you and me
Making our agony
Transparent
Transplanting
Your words into my mind
And putting my words
Upon your thin
Diaphanous skin
Allowing me to see in
While your wonder
Flows out faster than
Light from a dying star