How does one begin to say goodbye to someone they love Someone they loves for centuries and received nothing in return I know our hearts were drifting But i never thought it would come to this Standing miles apart And looking at the same night sky Do you remember the constellations I showed you years ago? Do you remember when you said you would always love me? Its strange now looking back on all those promises We never thought the last time would be the last time I never thought there would be a time when I couldn't hold your hand or kiss you Yet here we are You said I wasn't the right one for you anymore Ans I suppose I shouldn't want to be with someone who doesn't want me anymore But as I breathe in the stale night I still want to be with you I want to hold on to what was lost years ago I want the lies to comfort me I want you You didn't even say goodbye I guess I wasn't that important to you But you were my north star in the darkest times and now its pitch black Without even a trail to follow
Do you remember? I destroyed you Do you remeber? I cheated I lied I cut And I tried Do you remeber? So don't come back now There's no way no how Do you remeber? Our fights Our anger Our pain The danger Do you remeber? You destroyed me Do you remember? You manipulated You lied You left Never tried Do you remember? Why did we do that Do you remember? After the kissing The missing The loving I'm reminiscing Do you remember? Your lips My hands Together Our plans Do you remember? Like glass One thousand feet high Breathless Our bodies touching the sky Do you remeber? We were happy So happy In love Do you remember? But we can't live back there In the past Do you remember? The future Do you remember? I loved you once Do you remember? Can we love love again? Do you remember? I won't get my hopes up Because I remember.
I am weak And when they ask me What has made you this way? I will only whisper your name
Your smiles Laughs Eyes And arms Have made me weak
I long to hold your hand within mine And to caress your hair under my fingertips To see your smile brilliantly flash in my direction And to feel your breath intertwine with me Our hearts beating in synchronization
You have made me weak
I used to stand strong On my own Indestructible
I left you In an act of defiance against my own heart To prove to my own self That I would not be a fool again I would heed the warnings And listen
But I am broken
The hand that would hold yours Aches painfully
My fingertips bleed With my carelessness
My smile has disappeared
My breath is stuck in my throat Choking on words I want to say
My heart is shattered By my own hand That wields a dagger Carved from my own bone
Every ounce of strength I possess Is used to stay away from you
You have taken so much from me My happiness My strength My appetite My peace My future My soul
I walk around my own home like a ghost Haunting the walls A shell of the woman I used to be Only occupied by a pathetic creature
One that only takes up space One that only ignores what is painfully obvious And one that can’t seem to let you go
What am I doing? Why can’t I let you go?
My hair is falling out My skin is losing its color My smile is losing its brilliance My laughter is forced
Why have you made me this way?
I need you And you have made me too weak to get you
I won't pretend that you don't haunt my dreams, that the worst of nightmares aren't filled with your screams, but if you do ask me, then I'll lie and I'll say, that at least you don't haunt me, during the day.
