I want to think
That my love had no chance
Or else I'll never stop wondering
I want to believe
You wouldn't ever fall for me
And we'd have nothing
But a pain filled ending
I want to see your eyes filled with her
Like I looked at yours so lovingly
So I can find nothing but pain in you
And find happiness elsewhere willingly

Here I am at the beginning again.
I found myself here thinking I was going the right way.
It seemed straight, it seemed right,
it felt good.
I was dizzy from happiness.
I never stopped to realize my swooning was my own doing;
running down this road with you in
one
giant
loop.

I do not love him anymore
My feelings are nonexistent
My heart is no longer torn
Its stubbornness cease to exist
Whatever happened in the past
Let me leave it there
I am no longer sad
I no longer care
Two halves of my heart
Have again become one
Neither of them are yours
For my love for you is done
Keep the piece I've given you
If there is space in your heart
For I have no fragment left for you
And for that I can finally part

My feelings for you now
Is like the tide
It comes and it goes
Sometimes the sea is calm
And it doesn't come at all
Sometimes my emotions stir
Like a whirlpool in the sea
Or they become chaotic
Hitting me like a tsunami
My love for you now
Seems to come in waves
Like a gentle tide
That still rushes to you
With feelings not quite the same

What is it like to hear their voice in your ear?
What is it like to have them far or near?
What is it like having those late night calls?
What is it like to finally fall?

All I see are red and pink hearts around me
So-called couples kissing up on the TV
Dates and soulmates, cheesy lines that I hate
‘Cause I know I’ll never, ever relate

What is it like having them butterflies?
What is it like to have them kiss you goodbye?
Is it like the love songs you hear on the radio?
What is it like to actually know?

Do you really get chills when they touch you there?
Having them hold you with so much care
Y’all talking fondly about each other for days
And I will never, ever relate

I try not to let these thoughts get to me
But I can’t stand seeing all these things I see
‘Cause deep down it’s something I envy
It honestly drives me ******* crazy

I almost want someone to take advantage of me
Don’t care ‘bout the consequences, just fill up my senses
Want nothing but their body heat, tell me that I’m pretty
Feeding off anything they say to make these tears go away

I wanna breathe the air they breathe if it means they’ll never leave
I wanna hold ‘em so tight, talk nonsense all through the night
I’m down for any lies if it’ll stop my cries
Don on a whole masquerade, I just want to relate

‘Cause all I want is happiness
Surrounded by sparks and hearts, meanwhile I’m loveless
I yearn for the feeling
I yearn for the feeling

Been waiting patiently, but I’m not getting any younger
If I wait any longer, I may lose my mind
What is it like? I need to know so badly

…I think I’m selfish.

I keep giving away pieces of me
In hearts filled with someone else
As if giving away puzzle pieces
To puzzles already built