i think i’ve always known deep inside that you and i was never going to happen but even though my mind is telling me that my heart is telling me yes yes yes because everytime i look at you i feel something inside that i haven’t before and i know how cliche that sounds but i truly cannot get my mind off of you you are unlike any other boy i’ve ever seen and not just because your eyes are bluer than all the rest but because you make me feel like sunshine even though you’re not even mine can you imagine how bright we’d be combined
I'm rising Then falling twice as fast and twice as far There is a presence that follows me wherever I go He always taunts me, intrigues me, leaves me His touch is clammy yet satisfying Yet the more I enjoy his presence the less of myself is here It moves to a happier place Full of love and life And love ...
I am not there I can see it but it is unattainable I have become chained in the darkness by his presence A caress of my cheek An accidental nudge To the point where even a look feels like his embrace I sink deeper Deeper deeper .
All I can do is sit back and watch the cycle continue There is hope It is right there in the light, where I am I am there But I am not A piece of me is still chained in the darkness, never to return
Because I can save him I can save the presence If I stay long enough maybe he will join me in the light
I suppose I might have liked you more before you liked me when you were a castle in the sky a faraway dream for others to have and to hold but not me certainly not me when you were a shining vision of unattainability I suppose I've always been this way always wanted more wanted what I can't have bored when I get it always wishing always wanting dragging myself through the pain in order to say "look, I survived it look, how strong I am" nevermind that I caused it so I don't know if I can deal with your sudden attainability don't know if I can coerce myself through the boredom of happiness
Spirit, yearning so waves, the cherry blossom hangs so high; so my love.
Perfect Love, the highest ideal, hangs above me, forever unattainable; yet I strive, and in doing so I am filled with awareness, and through this, peace. And so I am content in my striving, though it may bring me to tears, at times. For I am doing my best. And that is enough.
Friendships are more difficult Because you can't find an easy way To separate love from lust. A hug is never just that... Because for just a split second, You can feel the connection, the trust.
You project an air of sensuality. You can't help it... It's in your talk, walk, the way you move. Your rawness scares them. It makes you unique, different. And they're left craving only you.
They think it's a good thing Because you're blessed with the body. You could make men fall at your feet. But you don't. Kind, gentle, soft, you're not of this world. Paradise is where your mind and body meet.
You will always be a heartbreak away From the anger men will impose On your delicate soul. In the end, you'll be alone Because you fear intimacy. My Perfect Angel, whose heart he stole.
Inspired by the woman who has it all, but can't give to all.