We all have our dark times,Some find the light others ignore
We all have demons inside,But some turn away
You may think we're the same but trust me we're not
If you had my life you'd hate it a lot more.

Some days i struggle to move
Most days i just sit and cry
No motivation, no goal in sight
What do i have to truly prove.

Believe me i've tried to end this show once or twice
I've tried both the positive and negative
Neither have worked
i want to end my life, grab a knife and slice.

I've cried so many times i've lost track
Im sick of this constant fear
I wish i could be happy trust me i do
I'm tired of an everyday panic attack


Some days i struggle to move
Most days i just sit and cry
No motivation, no goal in sight
What do i have to truly prove.

My eyes are numb from the tears i've flown
Cried over loss of loved ones time and time
I thought i could get through this
Who can i blame i should've know.

I'll try again to break the spell
If i fail and this pain finally ends
don't look back in sadness
My story you must tell.

I walk the city, the city clean
Where the sun is brighter on this side,
I keep my head straight no to be seen,
Though all my guilt can I cannot hide.

When the dove sings below me I can hear,
When the child suffers I do understand,
Where my conscience bundles up its fear
Before the child does raise her hand.

I carry no hope or miracle for the child
But I probably should spare the change,
To leave her in this city wild,
Would a dollar or pennies ease her pain?

With head straight forward I continue a march,
Pockets jingle past the innocent poor,
Walking past my burning heart,
I wonder if Heaven for her will open a door.

Did I win or lose?
Perhaps-maybe nature won.
One less spin cycle,
Gallons of life water saved.
In my intellectual hemitage
I find a difference can be made,
Oh underwear,
Spirit of nature,
First I wear you proper,
And the day is good.
I walk forward into the morrow
And turn the world backwards.
Yes the tag now goes to front,
And wedgies aside, all is well.
In the instantaneous moment
Ina departure of normalities,
Confronted with a bundle of reflections,
I move into day three,
Inside out.
The days have dispersed,
I wreak of the third day,
Still a difference has been made.
I take off the underwear,
Crispy and tainted,
With a lump in my throat
And a little hope I made a difference,
The underwear is sacrificed to the hamper.

Our eyes lock, and my words are at them,
Like hands at a door.
Knocking,
Is anybody home?
It's almost three a.m.
Dead silence rules the air,
And our breathing becomes like the wind.

Let me in, but don't keep me,
Give me a brief chance,
Then expel me.
Back into the darkness,
Where I watch and wait.
Blood flowing from my wounds,
And tears forming in my eyes.

Before the night is over,
Let me sleep.
But not in peace,
Forever in fear.
And give me a dream with a deadly kiss goodnight,
And the poison on your tongue.
Watch me suffer.

I'll stand against everything you promised,
Everything I could wish for.
I already decided you were dead to me,
But until then, watch me suffer.

Nothing gold can stay,
I'm a rigid mannequin with evolving feathers
Feather petals across my horizon
The earliest movements of heaven upon them

I'll never be able to waste away
But no one ever told me plastic decays.
Primped and primed
Who knows how I could come to be so divine?

I never loved but I have lost
My narcissism is on decline even while it is on the rise
Sunrise sunrise but what a surmise
Heaven comes to above but never flashes a light like a dove

My father is blessed be
I am a curse in a bundle of joy
I walk in contradictions and I puddle all day to cry
A lightning flash of a flutter of an eyelash

A millions a millions galore
I cannot live without a human heart
Despite the fact I sell all these shells I find on the raw shore.

Diamonds upon diamonds galore
My thirst set ablaze
My legs forever open
My heart a tiny cage

A precious girl
Unkempt hair and a messy soul
Walking in contradictions
Ablaze with fragmentation
Each pin ***** flattened and sewn

It may be a fragment but it is for sure
A dagger, the edged sword
I could be poison, I could be a *****
But in my brown eyes I am warm

A teddy bear but frightened
A lady but not by the shore
Tempted by spells
Burdened by lost promises and vindictive twirls

A pinch and a *****
Each day was a new month
Each spite was a new bite
Now I'm just a devil's delight.

I love the idea of a throne
But I sit on my own flesh
Decaying as I dig in
Vanity, eating my own cakes
Fattening my arteries
I truly am, if anything,
I am wholly gluttony.

I want to bask in your presence,
and revel in your smile,
meditate in your peacefulness,
and sing with you a while.

I want to share with you your glories,
and weep with you your fails,
praise you in your Heaven,
and suffer with you in your Hell.

I want to observe you in your spotlight,
and draw the curtains when you're not,
Be your sidekick in your rebellion,
and lie for you when you're caught.

I'll greet you in the morning light,
with my blurred line of wants and needs,
If the Universe grants my wish,
so begins the journey of you and me.