do you remember,
the day we first met,
you wore a stubborn face,

do you remember,
how we would talk and joke,
we were inseperable,

do you remember
when i held your hand
as tears streamed past your face,
eyes filled with grief,

do you remember
when you told me that
nothing will bring us apart?
i laughed,
we were so young,


oh but only if you,


r  e m e m b e r e d


but you do remember,
glowing eyes,
and a faint smile,

an extended hand,
long evenings by the pool,
echoing laughs,

but you do remember,
what should have been
a happy memory,
ended so tragically,

when you should have been,
blowing out the candles,
you were paying your respects,
at my funeral

do you remember,
as i took one last breath,
and i told you that this wasn't,
the end

did i not tell you,
that i would come back?

i've been through this before,
but this time it's not the same,
this time i can't let go

you've changed,
but not your eyes,
you've changed,
and it breaks my heart,

but when the world forgot,
when i became just a name,
you remembered.



maybe in another lifetime,
if only i had been lucky in this life,

you could have been mine,



f o r e v e r

your letters, written to coax an empty heart.
an illusion written with dying lead,
begging to fade away.
it is still beautiful, marching in formation
on the loose leaf paper towards the end.
your signature,
which stands to be the only thing left true.
I keep it,
a reminder how lies are beautiful
in your handwriting.

‪No matter how it ends, I want you to remember the good things that we used to have. Those were ours; are still ours to be remembered.

Something for you to remember me by,
Maybe you’ll look at it everyday,
Maybe you’ll store it away,

Maybe someday you stumble across this,
And maybe you’ll reminisce

That there was one a ‘BAE’.

By the break of dawn tomorrow
You will live in fray
Due to the fact that I won’t be here,
I know that you will fear
What you hear,
Your son, friend, love
Flying with the dove of death,

I feel as if I don’t make you happy
Then what’s the point of being here,
If I can’t make you proud
Then what’s the point of being around

When the clock strikes midnight,
You will see a big fright,
Me just hanging there,
My body so violently bare,
This note to you
Is made because I couldn’t do much,
I feel like I have failed you,

As the tears come running down your face,
As you are in the dark hole of depression,
Just think about all of the good times that we’ve had
All the laughs and smiles,
Just remember the memories that we’ve made together,
Remember the smiles we put on people’s faces
Remember the days that were so cold
And when I walked in that room
The day became warm,
Remember me for me!

My dear heart why are you aching?
Don't withdraw from me
Tormented while sleeping
Emptiness scares me

My mourning mist
Unknown grief
Veined fist
Oblivious thief

Dear Heart, we're inseparable
But you're being unfavorable
I think we should part
I'll cease to breathe while you reach your dead-end

do not attend my funeral,
many moons from now,
for i want you to know me for the times we had
when i was laughing and dancing around our kitchen table,
not for how you'd watched me get put into the ground.

i want you to throw my ashes to the wind,
letting them waft as freely as they wish
to every nook and cranny of this earth.
that way, when i am gone,
i will be everywhere,
and you can always have that dimpled smile
playing at your lips wherever you go
with the memories of us and all that we had.