dark clouds linger on the horizon,
you can just make them out.
summer, you've been
...
my head stops working. what words surmise the whole picture? how do I stay true to events, when my heart hurts? who am I really upset with? everyone else, or the wreck I see inside? this is a hard path to follow, I am long out of practice. I want goodness, wholeness, honesty - and that includes the sad and the difficult. I want Jesus. I don't want my volatility any longer, and I know it's a journey, but goodness I long for its end.
I want to love those around me, even those keep making it difficult to. I want to be light and joy, not bitter and cruel. I need more God, and less conchúr... it is just taking a little while.
...
summer, you have been,
and whatever comes next,
I know where my anchor lies.
dark clouds linger on the horizon,
you can make it out of this alive.
a prayer? on another sleepless night.
