Sweet spiced cookies
wafting in my nose.
It draws me to the kitchen
and on my tippy toes.

Mama's made a special treat.
She says it's still too hot to eat.
I can hardly stand the wait!
I bet they'll taste so great.

I hold mama's apron
until she gives me some.
It tastes just like mommy,
and it tastes just like home.

“Come downstairs, dinner’s ready”
No mom!

“Look here, I knit you a sweater for picture day”
No mom!

“Come with me to the store, it’ll only be 10 minutes”
No mom!

…

No mom, don’t leave,
don’t go,
I want to eat that stew once more,
Make me anything,
a scarf for the summer,
I want to smell your scent once more,
I’ll go,
follow you to the ends of the world

Just come home,
I promise I won’t say no anymore

She sits on the cold tile floor
Her life flashes before her eyes
4 am regrets.

The lack of sleep is just getting to her.

The shadows loom over the curtains
The pictures of her past start collapsing on the floor
Her head hits the back of the wooden bed panel

Could you wish for anything more unhanded?

The music from the neighbors flat echoes into the night
The barely visible drawings on the wall sneer at her
Its past her bedtime.

Who are you waiting up for anymore?

The ringing in her ears grow louder
The hours pass by slipping through the cracks of the drain.
Who are you crying to anymore?

There is no one to confess to.

The mirror overshadows the bed like church pews at midnight
She tells her that she never loved her.
She disappeared into the clouds that loom over the moon.

Her watch tells her to sleep.

She sighs and climbs back into bed
She remembers that she never loved her.
She remembers the scars that trail along her back.

Her life cannot help but flash before her eyes.

The ceiling morphs and twists
Her eyes flutter shut as her mind plays its tricks
She caresses the scars that itch at the roots of her hair.

Maybe its better this way for everyone.

She can no longer hear the heart beating slowly in the closet
Her mother told her that she is worthless
She begs for the sleep to take her.
Before her mind starts wandering to that point.

The darkness feels cool against her skin
The crooked mattress settling in its place
She sleeps on her side to avoid the bedroom mirror
The world grows still around her as it walks

on ******* eggshells.

The dawn permeates through the broken window sill
She never was a heavy sleeper.
She went missing out of nowhere
The ringing of her phone echoed in her ears

like Sunday bells.

And there was no more trace of the former shadows that pitifully gazed at her in the corners of her room.

-Kore

Everyday with you
I learn something new

They don’t tell you about the hard days
When your down to your last piece of patience

Its not your fault
Nor mine;
This is something new

I am thankful for you and all that you do
But they really don’t tell you about the hard days

When you can't fall asleep
When you refuse to eat

Why wont you let me brush your hair
Can you put on your underwear?
I’ve been chasing you around days

Help me, let me catch up

You’re growing taller and getting smarter

Your training my brain
Testing my restraint

I feel that I am failing you,
I feel you could do better without me, your mommy
But everyday with you,
I learn something new

Because they do tell you about the good days
But never go in depth

From the “mommy I love you" down to the kisses and hugs
You make the bad days seem not so tough
when your smile pokes through the 3 year old " I'm grown" attitude

So we can stay up tonight
maybe share a midnight treat

We can brush your hair in the morning
or tie it up

Who needs underwear
Mommy doesn’t care

Everyday with you
I learn something new

Good days or bad days
I will always love you
No matter what they tell me
Everyday is a new day for me and you

I'd rather learn something new then have never met you