Her narrow path kept winding as she hummed along in tune
To a song no one else heard, except her lover on the moon.
She skipped and ran and often fell,
But never wondered why
Some creatures fly to heaven and some simply die.
She listened to the others but they never heard her speak.
She was brave in her convictions but they thought of her as weak.
She tried to wear a normal hat but found it way too tight,
So she spread her tangled tendriled hair and found herself in flight.
It's a very lovely planet and she left it much too soon.
And though no one seemed to notice...
There was crying on the moon.

I like skies the most when you are in an open field
and the stars are out, you lay down in the grass

counting these beautiful lights and than suddenly you realize
you are breathing, you are alive, you are worth so much more
and that the world is beautiful even though you feel like crap

she always had this feeling, this girl was different
he always had this feeling, this boy was different

they both had broken pieces and feelings they couldn't place
but when they were together it all made sense, it was right

I have this dream to see the world
to escape from the city and follow the sun
I just want to be lost in more ways than one

and all I ever wanted was you to go with me on this adventure.

So many thoughts firing shots to the dome.
None random. I've had these feelings all along.
Dealing with them all alone.
To you, another sad love song.
To me, they are the reasons why I am.
The one you claim to know but barely understand.
So halt in the judgement,
your kind so easily seems to pass
I'm 10 steps ahead of the petty
Traps laid for snakes in the grass.
I'm on that ***.
Whippin it around the curves
Unbothered by life swerves
Thinking you know what's best for me, you got the nerve.

Why cant you just understand?
Why do i have to say it out loud ?
Why must u hear the words with you ears ?
Listen to the screams and tears of my soul .
Listen to my silence . Hear it . I beg you . Hear it
Please just hear it

~

I ran.
Sometimes too close, sometimes too far.
I hoped.
I'd find something real, something that made me feel.
I sought.
Adventures, experiences, happily ever afters.
I dreamt.
Of starry nights, steaming tea and fields grazed with laughter.
I wrote.
Letters, poetry, prose, all addressing you.
I ran.
Sometimes too close, sometimes too far.

It's not your job to take care of me
Not that you ever could.
It's not your job to fix me
Not that you ever would.
It's not your job to make me feel safe
Not that you ever should.
Because I have never shown you the real me
For you have never understood.

Never understood the pain that has felt worse than acid rain
Or all the chances I give to people for it to just go down the drain.
Never understood that because of my guarded heart, I can create these works of art
Or at night I just need someone to hold me so I won't fall apart.
Never understood how all of these emotions are bigger than all the oceans
Or how I have a short fuse and I blow up worse than explosions.
Never understood why my brain has these screams,
Let alone why you're always in my dreams
Or  how sometimes I feel like no one is on my team.
Never understood that I'm trapped with all this rage in this bird cage
Or how all I want to do with my life is turn to the next page.
Never understood why I am on this Earth
Or how I'm hoping to prove more than my worth.

For I now hope you can fill in the blank.
You only have nightfall to thank.
In the morning, I will not feel the same
Because I have learned better to hide my shame.
But for now
Let's play a little game.
How fast can we gather the inner demons
And manage to keep them tame?