I am tired of waiting for December
with her white teeth and prolonged visions of lace veils
to get dressed
put her makeup on  
before taking the long road back to me
weary of her indirection
as if she can't remember the short way
as if she wouldn't drive 200 miles
guilt heavy in the trunk of her car
for being so far away
just to steer clear of me
because you can't build a fire
in the middle of an ice storm,
or her cold shoulder all the same.
There is no use in laying in the sun
when the possibility to thaw
is below 0.
I am tired of missing December
each time January melts away.

Ahh! I so wished you to be near me,
To be together, we both roaming free,
With hands held along those running roads,
Or simply lying down over green meadows,
Hanging out around bees and butterflies,
Or maybe just counting stars from the skies,
Maybe we'd play with waves and breezes,
Or just adore how that sight of rainbow pleases..
Ahh! I so wished you to be near me,
Ohh I so wished, my sweet pea...
All those moments we touched, I'd treasure,
And keep them safe to be cherished at leisure..
Yeah..they said long distance love was smart...
If only they'd known the despair of a typing heart!

And yet, somehow, nonetheless, even so,
I am loved
And I love
And I love and get loved and love and get loved in an endless cycle
His name makes my heartstrings loosen
He's a million miles away and when his voice filters through my phone I feel my lungs get in the car and drive to him
I wish it wasn't so
And yet
I wish nothing will ever change
Day after day,
I make plans
What I'll do when I see him next,
What I'll say when he asks me to marry him,
What I'll name our first
Second
Third
Fourth?
Child and what I'll do when they get into college
What I'll do if he dies before me
What I'll want written on my grave, next to his, because if we can't spend these moments together now, it's only fair we get eternity
And yet,
We're young and things might not go as planned
But I'll wake up tomorrow and make a new plan
Because when you love and are loved in return, you have time

Last night, I felt your breath on my cheek
The simple sound calmed me
I now lay here alone in torture
To remember the slightest bit

The absence of your body against mine
In the dead of night haunts me
I long your presence by my side
Save me.

I never thought distance, complicated.
I never imagined feeling so empty.

Tonight you lay in bed at a minutes’ distance
Although I must know, our time for now is over
I won’t get to kiss you again
Until the fresh air is much colder.

Can I say I already miss the smell of your skin
When it’s still in the bed I’m sleeping in
Can I say the distance is already killing me
When you’re still here, but tomorrow you won’t be

This journey isn’t easy
I know it can’t possibly be
I just can’t wait till again,
I fall asleep with you next to me.

To my lover who hails from the land that rules the waves,
Though I may never see you
I pray you will sail to me even if im in my grave

We are separated by sea and sand,
But I long for a day I can feel your touch,
Because life without you i've decided is very bland,
But living without seeing you is extremely rough

"My dear, when I talk about you,
I feel like I'm telling people about a character
From my favorite novel"
                    He laughs
"But my dear, I am real"
         She looks up at him
"Sometimes that's the worst part"

They say absence makes the heart grow fonder;
I say I can't be without you much longer.

This distance is killing me,
And you bring the life inside me.

Can I pin away the days
And throw away the nights?
Can I fold down the miles
And jump through the highlights?

They say absence makes the heart grow fonder;
I say wait for me love,
a few more days and we'll be together

Hey lover, fret not
I will wait for you.
Though distance is a fuss
My heart will never tire of you.
When emotions are in a knot
And thoughts are all in Dutch
Our bodies intertwined in mind
Make all this chaos comes to a halt.

Cherry blossoms and roses,
Once they were just flowers,
Now even the sight of these blossoms,
Remind me of you.

Star anise and cardamom,
Oregano and thyme,
Even garlic and onions,
Remind me of how we cooked together.

Sitting in the car alone,
Or looking at cyclers riding past,
It all reminds me,
Of how we traveled together, side by side.

Looking at paintings,
Seeing street art,
The very thought of visiting a gallery or museum,
Reminds me of you.

Seeing a lake, watching the sunset,
Looking up at stars, remembering Orion,
Watching the sea, looking at pictures of islands,
Remind me of you.

Once Germany was just another country,
In far away Europe.
Now it’s a place of dreams and reality,
A place that reminds me of you.

Going places where we’ve been before,
Walking on the same street,
Or sitting in the same restaurant,
Makes me yearn for you.

As I do my work,
Go about life,
I wish you were with me,
Every second of everyday.

I love you, sweetheart.
Dear Alex,
I love you, my angel,
Beyond description.