I have had to dig my heart deep
with the shovel of your cruelty
buried our memories with stifled weeps
and in that,still, I find a kind of beauty

Some say I'm a slave to love, to others I'm only a fool
Neither know to have loved alone is a rare gift
For my heart is an engine and love is its fuel
with my feet on the ground, not hovering nor adrift.

It is with grief now that I bid you farewell
but who says in that there is no charm?
Our times together now in another time dwell.
A time that can cause none any more harm

In the midst of the night
We met and fell apart
We recognize each other and fought
And here we are standing back to back

We are so in love and believing
Like there is no ending
And we have to face the beginning
Of the fights, the sweetness and caressing

Forget about the stars
Left the strokes
Come to the evening
Where 'us' is better than parting

Smile is captivating
When it's genuine
Eyes are amazing
When it shine

You're like peach flower
That blooms in Japan
Your scent is as fragrant as peach
And I am here beside you still fallin'

Part 3 : I thought you love me, but it’s all my hallucination

The day you left me,
The last day of fall 2017.

You left your knife hanging on my heart
I thought we would last forever
But how could your love for me disappear so suddenly?
Why couldn't I see this coming?

Just that, you left me
When you knew my heart is still aching for you

So, I looked at your eyes for the last time
Hoping there’s something
But I didn’t see anything in them

The Ice Plants died slowly, and winter came.

Part 2 : I started loving you with no hesitation

Our last vacation together,
The last day of summer 2017.

The tall grass bowed to us,
as we made our way across the orphic meadow
We laid down together side by side
And on this damp grass,
under the clouds,
our hearts rang forever

At that moment, I said to myself,
time, space, and beings can’t step between us

I started writing musics with our love
And even the flowers started talking to me
Love just felt so magical

Love, I said to myself inside
I glanced at you,
and you smiled at me
The words stopped at the tip of my tongue
But before I could even say it,
our lips met, and the Ice Plants bloomed.

Part 1 : I opened our first page with no expectations

The day we first met,
The first day of spring 2015.

I still remember the scent of the cool air on that day
The silent wind tickled my exposed skin
The faded jazz music from the coffee shop
The customers’ chuckles and chatters

And then there’s you.

I still remember what you wore on that day
Even your first words to me
The sparks in your eyes pulled me
The sweetness in your smile weakened me

And when our eyes met, the Ice Plants bloomed.

The night when spring found us
under this dim disco light
you held your hand for me
and pulled my body into yours

With the heat of our love
and the pairs of eyes on us
I was so ready to kiss you
like we can do this all night

So let’s go nowhere, you said
under the small bridge
across the food stalls
with the murmurs of unfamiliar faces
in our big city
when everything will shine before us

We let our walls fall to the ground
and to release our soul
while our love is exploding
creating a universe between the two of us

At 2:52 a.m as you dozed off to sleep, I hung up the phone.
That's when I realized what the meaning of happiness was,
I found a natural drug for all my pain and anxiety.
It's your voice, your smile.
I'm in love with your smile.
I'm in love with you and I haven't even touched your skin.
I've fallen in love with your soul. I’ve found the light I've been searching for.
How can I be in love with someone that I’ve never met in the flesh?  
You're trapped between pixels on a phone
Between the muffled words
Poor connections,
And long pauses.
You brought light to the darkest parts of me,
You make me feel safe from the things that hurt inside.
And I know we are both broken but you took my heart and placed it back together.  
At 2:52 a.m I thank the universe for bringing us together
Because the odds of us ever meeting were slim.
Now its 2:53 a.m. and I realized that I can never tell you this.

being in love
What is love
How does it feel being in love

you want to feel it
I want to feel it
I think am in love
in love with just not myself
I think am in love with you

never in my life
did i ever think
i would say this word
but i said it anyways
am in love