you were the hunter,
and I was the prey
you set up traps to trick me into your frigid clutch
my guard use to be so strong
but you tricked me to forget that
and there I stood
heart open, arms wide, and giving you every part of myself
it didn't take one shot but instead it took much more
because after each shot I kept wandering back to you
it didn't take long for the scars on my heart to start accumulating
you fire one last shot
I remembered when you promised you would never hurt me
but here I am drowning in my own pain and tears
I think you've finally killed me
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because of you
I use to see colors
but now all I see is grey
at one point your purpose
was intended to be a medicine
but you turned into a drug
and now I'm a struggling addict
that's going through withdrawals-
tell me how to get the colors of my life back that I gave to you
because when I said I loved you so much that I was willing to give you everything;
I didn't think you would keep it all when you left

when it came down to the end, i should've seen it coming. cause even though you called me up every night, it was inconsistent. was that your subtle way of telling me that someday you would leave and never come back? i used to think that you talking about her hurt the most but, ****, nothing could compare to the pain of you walking out through that door. you saw how ****** up i was, and you left. how ******* unfair is that? you told me you were the person i should never feel insecure with; you would remind me again and again that you were there for me, said you'd never leave me. oh darling, really? i can't even count how many times you left and made me feel so **** unimportant. and maybe i'm just mad, mad that you left without a single word, mad that you left me looking so desperate and hopeless. but when it all comes down to it, i know it's my fault. i was the one who opened the door for you, the one who unknowingly pushed you out. and i know, i know i shouldn't feel sorry for myself because i did this, i made it happen but **** i don't even know how to decipher my feelings anymore. i can deny all i want and say i'm mad at you, but really i'm just mad at myself and how my irrevocable actions was a big factor on the way things played out. i love you, i really really do, but maybe we're just not meant for each other and it's ******* unfair how the universe brought us together only to tell us that no we do not belong with each other. you started a fire within me and i was always the happiest when talking to you, but then you left, and i was never quite the same. the fire inside of me died, leaving only sparks of memories of  what we used to be and what we could've been.

I miss you
A little too much
A little too often
A little more each day

I want you
A little too much
A little too often
A little more each day

I need you
A little too much
A little too often
A little more each day

-H.R.

I don't have a good memory
I may forget things about my past
I may forget old memories

But I will never forget you
I will not forget the way it felt when we touched
And the sparks flew
I will not forget the hugs
And the safe feeling you gave me
I will not forget the late nights
And the deep talks
I will not forget the phone calls
And the confessions
I will not forget how happy I was with you every day

But maybe I want to forget everything.
It hurts remembering
I want to forget it all

-H.R.

He made me happy
Now hes gone
And though I swore I never would,
I hate him
Hes completely different
Hes changed so much
I miss the old him
I miss the old us

He changed my life
I said "I love you"
But he walked away
Leaving me behind,
Crying.
Dying.
Alone.

When I thought he would be there for me
He left
Walked away without a fight
Like it was easy for him
And it was the hardest thing
I've ever had to do

I kinda sorta really miss him
I kinda sorta really don't.

-H.R.

I want to text him



right now.

I'm starting
to forget
your sweet voice.

The way
you laughed
and the way
you made
me feel.

Like I
was special
and the most
beautiful flaw
in the world.

I'm starting
to forget
the moments
we shared
and the love
that i felt.

I don't
remember you
as clearly
as i used to.

I just hope you know
I love you
as much
as you hate me.

Today was a good day
The chords she strummed were pleasant
Melodic
C, G, F
She plucked my strings gently
Her voice was light
She doesn't miss him
As much as she did
Yesterday

Today
Not so good
She played the song again
And again
"I feel something so wrong
Doing the right thing"
She ripped at my strings
Till her fingers bled
And tears streamed down her face
Her voice was quiet
Choked
She missed him
Very much

Today was okay
She played the song
"Everything that kills me
Makes me feel alive"
But just once this time
It was flawless
But she forced a smile as she sang
Like the song meant nothing
It didn't hurt
Her fingertips were healed
There was applause
She whispered
"Thank you"

Today was a good day again
The chords weren't as flawless
As yesterday
She made mistakes
But her voice was strong
"I feel that love
And I feel it burn"
She missed him
More than ever
But he's the reason I stayed
Why I wasn't put away
He mattered because
He's her muse
Her life
The harmony to her melody
And hopefully
He'll know soon