As it begins
All those tiny raining drops
Wherever they fall
Inside a symphony
Toward a glorious  lull
The maris the mate
Inlockatude
we wait
Never recede
Openly embrace
We're one and the sane
Not peering back
to all that never was
There's only now
Here together
There's us
To drift closer to
the  beautiful Inbetween
Of every  cascading drop
Sheltered by
Your opening hand
We cross
In flow
to a narrowing glide
An emerging life
It beckons
It calls
I know you hear it
I'm sure I can too
To all that ' ll be
For ever how long
Its welcomed
Embraced.


(Leif 2018)

You are the only guiding star I have.
The best competitive soulmate I ever have.
Annoying you is what I love to do,
But whatever I do,you don't even move.
When you made me do all the chores mom asked you to,
I figured out that you lacked sense of Justice too.
Those moments when we fought for TV,
And those wonderful times
When you got caught for something I did.
Our maths was poor when it came to sharing food,
Not to mention the case of chocolates though.
I made faces to irritate you,
But I get annoyed with that poker face you do.
You know me way too well,
My favorite icecream flavor I don't tell.
You are the Tanjiro of my life,
Who carries me and my burdens of my life.
You are the Finneas of my music,
Who sets everything right and less chaotic.
You are my Tom while I'm your Jerry
How can our duo be less dramatic.

I know it hurts,
To hide all your scars,
And pain from your mind wars.
With a fake smile on your face

I know it hurts,
When people ask you why,
Rather than understanding your sighs
And the silence in your blood.

I know it hurts,
To reply how are you?
With fine.
When you know it doesn't rhyme.

I know it hurts,
When people act like they know,
They don't feel a thing though,
But you just ignore it all and so.

I know it hurts,
When you scream in your head,
With those invisible tears you shed,
Thoughts are left unsaid.

I know it hurts
When the world you see is black,
And You can't get yourself back,
That you think your answer lies in red.

I know it hurts,
But please do rely upon your family or friends,
Your life isn't meant to end.
You can make as many amends.

Who am I ?

I patiently asked....
But my answers were not answered....

As i sit under the shed drinking a hunters
I layed all my motives
Under
My heart racin.... that's
A sound of a thunder

Who am I?
Asked my father
The answers i got....
Deviates from one another....
I thought of me and I
But they was the other....
My self
Hidden behind the shelf
Taking orders like an elf
Pointy ears
Strange fears
I heard
All in my head

Who am I in your eyes?🌹

you’re as appealing as the moon
illuminating so brightly amongst the stars.
although you love to embrace
yourself beneath the night sky,
you’re always there no matter what.
darkness is your most loyal friend
even if you are the opposite.
with an aura so pure and gentle,
you offer protection and tranquility.
together, we are the time that goes forward,
but our love can make it stop.
it’s how we create our memories
and keep them stellar.
and of course
there’s always waves of emotions between us.
you have your craters
and so do i,
nobody’s perfect.
you’re the light that’s so far away
and closest to my heart.

She doesn’t try
Doesn’t have to
I try
Maybe too hard-
        “Notice me”
        “Look at me”
        “I’m funny”
        “I’m pretty”
        “I’m ****”
Maybe I’m wrong-
I don’t deserve you
Not like she does-
        “She’s funnier”
        “She’s prettier”
        “She’s sexier”
But I have something-
She doesn’t have
        “I’m more broken”

I wish I was her
You laugh with her
You talk to her
You hold her
You kiss her
Why can't I be her
Why choose her
Am I not good enough
        Pretty enough
        **** enough
She’s your lover-
I’m your friend
But I’ll never be her
You won’t like me-
Like you like her
I’m not her-
You want her