my heart feels heavy again
i don’t know if i can carry it alone again
i don’t think i want to carry it alone again

i’ll just carry it alone again.

You still hold on
though you know it will end very soon.

Your eyes.
The way they sparkled when they would lay on me....
That's all I have.
That's all I remember.
Cause if I think farther,
Remember more than that about you,
I'll break down and lose the girl I've been trying to make ever since you left.
So that's all I remember,
Your eyes.

The crown weighs  heavy
Atop the kings head
All his seers laid out in front of him.
Every one of them dead
They couldn't speak of what they saw
Not a single one dared
As they slit their own throats
So the King's life was spared

His heart weighs heavy
As he puts his wife to rest
With his stillborn daughter
Laying peacefully on her breast
All he has left of them
Is the tattoo on his chest
Above five loving words
"The dearest and the best"

Her eyes burn with a fire that lit my days

She moved with a grace that did not abade

When her lips touched mine my breath would fade

Lost in my love for her I would remain

But alas she was a spirit not to be tamed.

Ambiguity, dubious intent
Let those all flee from me
All I need and want
Is certainty and clarity
As I must take action
With empty solidarity
And heavy heart filled
With mercury and lead
Which can be fixed
By the Alchemist of mystery
But nonetheless to the end
I will be forever known to be
Alone in my own sweet misery

I watch as I trace my finger against the wall
taking in the noise it makes as the nail comes in
contact with the wallpaper

there must be more to life than this
having the little things impact me the way they do
not knowing what to do with this heavy heart of mine
not knowing how to continue on

my body feels so weighed down
and my head is battling the fog

i’m looking for the light
to save me from the darkness
but something tells me
it’s not coming

Silence
is
the
worst
suicide