there are times when I wonder if I’m really an actual person

separate from the amorphous mass of **** sapiens

every single cell in my body has been replaced already

so nothing is truly the same


and deep down all we want is survival

and I fear nonexistence more than death itself

Sometimes I promise people I will do something.
     And I promise myself I will do what I promised them I would do,
             And I promise myself I won’t forget the promises I made to
             myself and them,
                   So I break three promises in one go.

I am strong
I'll show you
       the one who never thought i could do it
That I Can
And I'm not afraid to
Even though you
       the one who never thought i could

Are
Wrong

When I first saw you
My mind was flooded with thoughts and images of
Scandalous Deeds

Then when I second saw you
My eyes were flooded with real images of
Scandalous Deeds

I never thought these
Scandalous Deeds
Would be come a reality
But now they are
And these
Scandalous Deeds
Are my true life
And with you
I feel loved
All because of these
Scandalous Deeds

love
           *and light
                               emanating from your beautiful face
                                                     you shock me with your beauty
                          every moment i spend with you
          brings me joy and happiness

your features are like gleaming stones, polished with oil
          shining with the light gleaming out from you
                          just like your beauty shoots out in rays like the
                           shining sun
      oh darling, i'll never stop loving you.

*i can think of no better way to describe my love for you babe

You said you'd never hurt me
But was that all a lie?
Now whenever I think of you
I can't help but cry

I thought I would never lose you
Now I see that that was fake
Now whenever I think of you
I simply start to bake

Rivulets of blood running down my face
Pooling in my hand
My dreams float into the sky
But in the dirt they land

yellow hair, falling and bouncing like ocean waves
orange lips, meticulously painted to be genuinely gorgeous
untouched beauty: you are all mine

and i know that this will never end
returning and coming back forever
ending is not an option

my love, you're the strongest. the bravest.
years of resistance have built you up to be towering over others

even when faced with disagreement, you easily overpower others
viewing you fight is the greatest pleasure
even when faced with turmoil, you stay strong
riding on everything is your beautiful soul
your beautiful soul brings me joy, even in the darkest times
thinking about you brings me the most happiness my love
happiness is real and true, palpable, when i see you
ice becomes my heart whenever you leave
not to lie, when you return, my heart thaws like a defrosted food
green broccoli or red cherries thawing

babe, you're the best and the bravest
at all of my events, you always impress everyone with your singing
bravery is needed to do that
you possess that courage within you

apples and pears could never measure up to you
nothing could ever measure up
dinosaurs could maybe but they are dead

i will never stop loving you

whispers mask your hidden feelings
illicit activities like late night reconnaisances
licking
licking

needing more from you
everything you provide is enough
viewing your beauty
everything you provide is everything i will ever need
reading each others lips like tongues

spicy activities
trucking across the 405 highway
of course i touch your skin
please tell me it is so soft and supple

love for you is tangible
oranges are more sour than my love for you
viewing your body
it is so graceful
needing you to tell me you love me back
gracefully you do

your love is so strong
oranges could never be as strong as my love for you
universe is beautiful. we are all stardust

a little acrostic peom
*hope you all like :)