Our souls were intertwined
Lying in a pit of darkness.
You point out a constellation,
To me the sky remains blank.

All I see is you
All you see is what’s beyond

The Earth drifts from the Moon
4 centimeters each year.
You drift from me
4 days each hour.

A year, an eternity for planets,
A day, an eternity for us.

He had this divine seduction
Like when you meet God or the Devil

My love for him was shallow
as the Aral Sea.

He was immaculate.

Enticing.

He had a beauty,
held by none,

a voice that hummed
like the flute of a snake charmer,

and eyes that gleamed
like the dead of night.

He could draw you in,
with just a wicked grin.

An Angel of God, that boy was,
And I worshiped him just the same.

I still know how you take your coffee
And how you prefer baths
But your legs are too long to sit comfortably
You’re all long limbs and bones
Soft skin and freckles

I remember falling in love through a computer screen
Watching your hair grow out  
As we grew apart

Sixteen was magic for me
I met you and never went back
Even now I remember the curves of your back
And the night of our first date
Ice cream in May never felt more right

You still have my sweater
I still have forgotten hair ties
And your dads hat from a few summers ago
I can’t let go of you completely
You have a piece of me forever
And I don’t want it back
I just want to see you again
So I can thank you for loving me
When nobody else could

A clear sight I can see
A future that has opened up to me
A cage that belonged to who  
with A door that is now open too
A heart that hasn't stopped beating Ever since I met you
A glimpse caught in a moment of stopped time
The wings fly faster then the seconds going by
The sun glares making their light reflect
Surrounding the future with many years
and Perhaps I have been deceived
That I am capable of hearing a Ding
I do not need a trumpet or drum
just a sound will do me in
for even just a small patter
Is more then I thought I could hear
for before you I lived an entire life of silence.

The pain
Still lingers
It bubbles up inside
And out my eyes
Pouring down my cheeks
Aching the empty space in my chest
The left over memories
Overwhelming my mind
And takes my breath

My happiness lies within you
The smile upon your face
The deep laughter emitting
The way your eyes shine with joy when least expected
Even when consumed by sadness
That comforting smile never strays
Never fades
Never disappears
Always left as a reminder
That the strongest are the most broken

My pride lies within you
Your willingness to accept what life throws
Your contagious confidence
Your ability to be brave
In place of those that are not
To you
Your reflection reveals nothing but a broken shard
But all I see
Is a kind soul
Temporarily held down by fate

My trust lies within you
The words spoken from your mouth
Are never in question
Never doubted
A secret told
Is a secret kept
In constant aim for what is good
Not straying from beliefs
Proof that doing what’s right
Isn’t always doing what’s best

My tears lie within you
An endless stream
Locked away
Fought back by your warm embrace
A rare light in a dark world
A sensation that used to bring nothing but joy
Now brings with it once lost pain
Unfamiliar with the agony
Consumed by loneliness
The final strike upon the dam

My fear lies within you
Ignorant to fate’s design
Lost in thoughts of the future
Miscommunication
Or even lack thereof
Distance
Physical and mental
Undecided upon which is worse
Yearning for neither
Receiving both

My guilt lies within you
A dark shadow lurking in memories
Happiness pushed aside
Struggling to regain control
Pulling you away from dreams
Hoping to escape my nightmare
A selfish desire that clouds my thoughts
Blurs my vision
Distorts my reality
But I’ll push this aside
To put your happiness first