Stomach dressed in black holes, Heart of velvet chained with barbed wire. Second guessing instinct, And I attempt to trust the liar. Sampling my memories Try to collect what I have learned. Bringing it, just below the surface. Is this the life I've earned? I'd like to believe I deserve more. In fact, I think I will. But as of late it seems my life Is standing perfectly still. And the God in me Promises fruition. "But it can only come, With a trust in intuition."
The more I connect myself to the universe and the Earth.. the farther I fade from the human way... Starting to feel more alien And outlandish Every excruciating day. Trying to collect my tribe and find which lane to travel. But my wheels Keep turning. And I'm moving high. Far from the gravel. Try and pull me down, I ******* dare you. But no way. No ******* way you're taking Away my crown. You can watch from down there with envy and defeat Or you can take my hand and allow me to show you How darkness can be sweet. I'm a ***** In my own corner. Love me or lose me. Either way, You'll be a mourner. But don't let that scare you off now.. For it isn't cold here. I can show you, That the universe is you Inside a mirror.
I perspire with a pulsing hope That love will prevail. A winding path leads me to a house of ruin. Only leaving me with the discovery that love; like beauty, Is in the eye of the beholder. Through broken glass I find myself falling Deeper in love With desolation. Because without darkness, light holds no value.
The swift sound Of steel against skin Brings me to a Deja Vu I promised myself To never feel again. But with waves Come a crashing. And now I require my old friend And a bit of slashing. Only for the hope That my heart will Steady again..
Treading lightly. Dreaming of you. Your laugh. It envelopes me Like water. Cleanses my anxiety. Could love taste this sweet? Or is this only My hopes Rising up And filling my lungs Only to leave me Empty? 3/8/16