My feelings are true
Valid and real.
My mind races,
Wonders..
Simply thinking of you.
I love your attention,
Crave your presence.
Need your touch..
But darling I am dangerous
I hurt all that comes near
Run, run far away darling
For I love you my dear,
But that does not matter,
You will simply become the next victim

"In my mind, the fine line between beauty and brutal is blurred.
The raw and the uncut, sends such a chill through my body that I couldn't tell you if it was her knife or her whisper."

He is no longer someone I admire
He isn't someone I can just "watch"
He is no longer someone I think is cute or adorable

He is someone I need
He is someone I crave
My skin
My hands
My lips
My heart
My thoughts;
His skin
His hands
His lips

My body burns
It aches
It craves

All
     For
         HIM


                                                                                                                r.n

I am told to take this one day at a time.

I cannot tell you how many times I have head that saying.

One day at a time,
One day at a time,
One day at a time.

It repeats over and over again in my mind.

One day at a time.
One day at a time

Yet, in my reality, it is
every seven minutes
then every ten minutes.

Every seven minutes, for m, feels like three hours,
during those seven minutes, i crave,
I crave to be drunk
I crave to be so high, I cannot tell left from right
I crave to smile like a child, 
I crave to laugh like there is no tomorrow
I crave to feel confident
I crave to make these shakes disappear for awhile.

Then every ten minute I feel normal.
I don't feel so outlandish for not drinking a beer.
I don't miss the taste of a cigarette,
after swallowing a shot or two.
I don't yearn for a drunken lullaby,
As time passes by.

Every seven then ten minutes
I'm switching opposite sides
Back and forth
inside my deranged mind
handling it the best I can

One day at a time

I crave you
But it makes me blue
You don't need me
But you won't leave
You play this game
That drives me insane
You're my day n night
This love's a plight
You make my mind muddle
Lets cuddle
You have my whole being
But you're fleeing