Every moment I thought of getting closure I was getting stuck a little bit closer.
Never was I ever sober than the day I lost her.

I think of you often  maybe it was because of the way you looked  at me,  like I was something that was worth looking into.

Now I am just longing for your eyes which I will never see.

I long for the way you turn your head towards me those are the memories that I will remember and cherish as long as I walk this Earth.


Loved you since we met.
Lost you  once when you died but I promise I will,...
I Will find you! again!!! and I will Love you thence.

He was danger from the very start,
The kind which came with many warnings.

I was cautious at once, Yes i was,
But soon I let my guard down,
I was left with a mind full of ideas,
He despised the ones he planted.

I loved, I fell, I fell in front of him,
He could not even hold me up.
Too busy with the others to give a ****,
I was dying right there and he didn’t care.

Guess love was a poison,
I drank up too fast,
Choked on my own tears,
I am broke, I won’t last.

Still hoping you could save me,
Hoping you could love me.

2/5/09 - The day I lost my best friend (Grandpa)
7/?/12 - Moved in with dad
12/11/16 - Tried to KMS
9/16/17 - The day my dad and stepmom got married
4/3/18 - Started dating my boyfriend
6/19/18 - The day my dad gave me up and kicked me out
6/23/19 - Day my uncle died. He never gave up on me
10/3/19 - My best friend died(Grandma)

New: 12/9/19- The day I broke up with my boyfriend

From desolute world to devoured stars I never found a way to stop loving you.