as i finally swim back up
from holding
my breath underwater
for so long,
i say goodbye
to
regret,
sadness,
pain,
and suffering.
i feel the sun’s
warm kiss upon my
cold, soaked up skin.
as i breathe my first air
after a long time,
i say hello
to
beginnings,
happiness,
healing,
and the beauty
of life.
i like to do laps at our university pool. like, i was training myself to go for 100 laps every time. last two weeks ago, i had a panic attack, in the middle of my swimming and thankfully, i knew what to do and i was at the side of the pool already.
i stopped swimming after a week, scared that it’ll happen again.
but today, i swam. even though i only did 20 laps, i felt that i was getting back my groove again.
i’m not scared of the water anymore.
because i learned how to breathe.
