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sufiya firdose Nov 2018
i cried ... i cried like a kid
i asked him..
why ...why in hell did he put in this
he dint replied
instead it rained...
my tears and rain mix flowing down ....
again for the last time
i looked at sky
with tears of
hate,betrayal,pain,and hurt
flowing .....and uneasiness in my heart...
i ran for hiding not form rain but from him
but little did i remember
he is one who made me and everything about
and can see anywhere he wants...
even in darkest nights and brights day...
but my stupid heart cant accept the fate
i ran to my room
closed the door and shut the lights
in the dark small little corner under my table i sat
tears rolling down ..lips murmuring....
all i can think is........."why the hell u let me live..
if i would end up like this....why dint you call me
when you where calling my mother"
i cried as much as i can....
i was tired ..frustrated and angry..
dont know when i fell asleep ....
............................................................­......
there is a sea i see
water washing my legs off
melody of sea shore
sun shining bright rays hitting face...
it was so beautiful and pleasant
i forgets a moment ago i was crying
then i noticed there is a big wave coming
it was not wave more like tsunami
i ran as fast i can .....but i hit by the wave
and was soon in water
trying to come out but cant
i closed my eyes and i know it end
all i could do is see dark now
i felt unconscious
suddenly i heard a lough
lough of small girl ....
beautiful eyes and prettiest smile
and to my surprise she was me
all my sweetest moments was playing like flash back
and hard times too
i could see my mother
caring and loving me ....
and then i see my own sisters
who dint got the love of my mother as much as i got
and i saw the small kids who dont even know
who there parents where
i felt pain a sharp pain
that i never felt
and i heard a voice telling me
"you think its unfair...
unfair just for you
then what about your sisters , what about those kids whose parents died before they open there eyes
when sorrow rain falls on you
shed i gave to hide
when there was no one you got your friends
when u need company you got your sisters
when you need love i gave
and its still unfair....??"
and suddenly my eyes shut open
i was in my room under my table
tears was in my eyes
i remaind silent for time being
i realize what i was doing was
stupid and selfish of me..
when i hated him for everything
through he was helping me all way long
when i felt betrayal and pain
he was the only one who loved me
from the beginning to now
i felt sorry...and now i know
no matter what
he is always there to hold me when m falling..
thankyou got for being there
when i need you
and for loving me ....
its someting i actully happend to go through yeah not whole thing but almost
sufiya firdose Nov 2018
what you are behind closed doors
let it be behind them
on the street you are
"AWESOME"
sufiya firdose Oct 2018
You know right we can turn desert into a bueatiful sea
If we are together…..
The past you went through made you stronger and made me too
All the misfortunate and brutal winds come across way makes us strongest
Just like phoenix you reborn
Today no matter we are in deserts
Together
We can change it into beautiful sea tomorrow
You are no more weak nor alone
Cuz today we are all hear just for you..with you
………………………………………………………………………………………..
You're the one who can do the incredible things
you do You're the best and baby you deserve the gift you have
Can't you see?
You are strong You fight against the demons everyday
You're a star,
remember where you come from and who you are
It's hard to be away from home
But it's all worth it look at yourself,
you know I'm talking to you
You're the one who can do the incredible things
you do You're the best and baby you deserve the gift you have
Can't you see?
You are strong You fight against the demons everyday
You're a star,
remember where you come from and who you are,
Believe it you gotta believe it
It’s not easy to be special
To believe in what they cannot see
Full of talent
You’ve got the something that will take you far one day
You’ll reach out to the sky and touch the stars
Just believe in yourself and see the magic
Life's a journey
It’s a roller coaster
Keep the faith and fight for what you want
Improve yourself learn to be strongest
You’re not alone one day you'll reach out for my hand and
And I'll be there
Just believe in yourself and see the magic
You're the one who can do the incredible things
You do you’re the best and baby you deserve the gift you have
Can't you see?
You are strong you fight against the demons everyday
You're a star,
Remember where you come from and who you are
It's hard to be away from home
But it's all worth it look at yourself,
You know I'm talking to you
You're the one who can do the incredible things
You do you’re the best and baby you deserve the gift you have
Can't you see?
You are strong you fight against the demons everyday
You're a star,
Remember where you come from and who you are,
Believe it you gotta believe it
This is all about being friends
All for one and one for all
We believe in what we do we'll never give up smile
You have to use a little fantasy
Let your heart bloom like a flower
You will always win
We know you were strong
And you are near the end
All you gotta do is fly
Just believe in yourself….you gotta believe it
And see the magic….magic
Just like a phoenix
you are gonna re born
Spread you wings and sail across the sky
Everyone can see there is a fire blazing in you
And its lighten up the sky
As you go higher all your past hunt away
You are very powerful your enemy’s stay at bay
You are the symbol that shows the path
No one can destroy you
There is no one like you
You are one of kind
Just believe in yourself…you gotta do it
And see the magic
You're the one who can do the incredible things
You do you’re the best and baby you deserve the gift you have
Can't you see?
You are strong you fight against the demons everyday
You're a star,
Remember where you come from and who you are
It's hard to be away from home
But it's all worth it look at yourself,
You know I'm talking to you
You're the one who can do the incredible things
You do you’re the best and baby you deserve the gift you have
Can't you see?
You are strong you fight against the demons everyday
You're a star,
Remember where you come from and who you are,
Believe it you gotta believe it
You know right we can turn desert into a bueatiful sea
If we are together…..
The past you went through made you stronger and made me too
this i speacially wrote for bts but keeping my sister my so cool boy friend and my osm friends in mind i hope it helps them out

All the misfortunate and brutal winds come across way makes us strongest
Just like phoenix you reborn
Today no matter we are in deserts
Together
We can change it into beautiful sea tomorrow
You are no more weak nor alone
Cuz today we are all hear just for you..with you
yooo hooo BTS love you lotsss
sufiya firdose Aug 2018
I once had a beautiful mother
Who used to be a teacher
She teaches hundreds of students
Yet I was the special one
She left me behind
When I was as sleep in my dreams
God ask her to come
Because he needs the one
The one who loves and take cares of every one
She left me without a good bye wave
May b she was to scare
That I would cry like a baby
I love to watch over blue sky
Because someone said me she is up above so high
Taking care of littlie firefly
When I wanna cry
I watch the beautiful sky
So that she can tell me everything is fine
And give me a warmed smile
She is my beautiful mother
Now who became an angel....
hmm well this i wrote to comfort my self i usully don't understand why it should be my mom and she passed when i was hardly 6 soo that tym my dad told me she is in sky and moon taking care of little angels
sufiya firdose Aug 2018
its my mistake and you keep reminding other
and here i keep falling down to earth
i thought you liked me
but you keep back bitting
telling them what i lack
and reminding me our sweet moments
if you want me to be best
cant you just tell me not the rest
and here i thought you liked me
and you keep back bitting
i know i am not the angel
and definitely not as perfect
but still you can help
is it that hard for you to tell
your are bad at this
you should not be like this
is it that hard
then why does you keep telling those people all this ****....why?
these are my mistakes and i guess i am going to correct this..
so if you have a problem come to me..
not to them
and i thought you liked me
but you keep back biting
yup this always happens to me yaah may b i lack in something but its too rude to do this  is'nt
sufiya firdose Nov 2018
marks which never leaves
using knife cutting hands
bleeding will stop
scars will form
by tomorrow
wounds will heal
yet all those pain
and that problems
that never spars
marks which never leaves
i guess its something all adolescence go through not all may be most of them and i am in
sufiya firdose Nov 2018
not everyone knows what secret she hiding
not to mention no one knows what she have been through
in this world they believe what they want
yet why do they hate her so much
they them self spread remorse
and yet they believe them and so did others
they use their tounge instead of knifes
to create her scars
well scars created by knifes are less hurting
then the created by words
little did they know what they are doing to her
yet she acts nothing happens
everyone hates her but its ok
because she hates herself too
with the scars on her hand and on her thai
she is in battle with her self
as if some one care
not to mention no one knows what she is bieing through
sufiya firdose Aug 2018
you think they are great ....just great
who knows what comes next
life changes like a coin
sometimes head ,sometimes tail
today they are king
so it does't mean they will always be king
time changes ...
tomorrow they will be soilder
of a king who once used to be their slave....
and you think they are great...just great
this poem i wrote while travelling with my friend for our maths exam and she was so frittend because of others
sufiya firdose Oct 2018
Hey this is for you
The person who is crazy enough to be with me
The one who know what I all need
The one who never complains
But gets over board when m with boys
The one who declaims to be my boyfriend
But claims as my husband
Yup it for you…
Today I have been so happy
You never give me a chance to complain
With you crazy sense of humor
You drive me insane
The day when I asked you to be mine
No doubt
You were perfect for me
Today after heights and low
I realize I love you more
It makes me happy just being by your side
All these feelings I just can’t hide
You look at me as if I’m the only girl around
You make me feel important and never let me down
You’ve shown me how to smile what to say
You’ve shown me what its worth to
Love someone each and every day
So this poem goes out for you
Who bare up with my mood swings?
And times when my anger rings
I used to dream of someone like you
And pray each and every night too
The one
Who hold me tight and see me through
To love my eyes and smile too
And when I am scared to stay with me for a while
And when I’m down take me to highs
It’s amazing feeling that I have for you
May be all I need to say is
I love you….
pretty like feeling love!!!!
sufiya firdose Oct 2018
It’s just a game or a fate
You said you would be there
But you know what
When I need you by my side
Every broken piece of my pride
All around the floor
And you just did was ignore
I felt a sharp pain
It was just like I would faint
But again I hope you would be there
Cuz you did promise me
Dint you
But you know what
I dint find your single trace
They say love heals
But I guess
It broke me into piece
And again how come I hope you would come
When you was all above that girl
Smiling like she is everything you got
That smiles that same smile
That wins my heart
I guess I lost you
I actually did lose you….
But it still amazes me that you dint care a **** about me
You know what…
I realize it now
That I myself love you
And I thought I would never get over you
But to my surprise
There is someone
You know actually a person loves me …
Not cuz I was pretty or sweet
But cuz m not like everyone
He does love me
And I can feel it
The way he looks
The way he smiles
The way he holds me
As if iam the most precious thing to him
And I won’t and would never say
I don’t love him
If I would I would be lying
Cuz I do love him ….
The way I never ever loved any one
What I mean is not even you
The one I thought I would die without
And I guess you thought it to
You know what
He shows me what the love is ….
What it feels being loved
I felt the same way that you felt cuz of me
So m thankful to you too
Make me feel **** awful
Cuz much broken I was
Most love I get
You know what
I wish one day you
You should know what is loving
Loving someone to the death
Loving them as if you breathe
The only then you will know
What is being loved?
How blessed you would be to loved
The pain how much it will be just to be loved……….
just a little riminder for someone.........that i am being loved

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