Your smile lights up my dark heart like a flash,
My giggle makes your eyes flutter and your nose scrunch up
Our happiness infects each other’s souls but,
Your heart is just out of reach.

Your hand fits in mine, like the last piece of a puzzle.
Your fingers cradle mine like a babe in their Mother’s arms
Our finger can always lightly touch but,
Your heart is just out of reach.

Our bodies fit in your bed, like it was designed for us.
Under you I feel nothing but pleasure
Our bodies have no issues but,
Your heart is just out of reach.

In true biology your kisses sends oxytocin through my brain
Much like with each touch of my tender lips blood heads downwards
Science is on our side but,
Your heart is just out of reach.

They say the heart gets what the heart wants but,
You and I will never be simple
And I’m sick of losing soul mates
So I will stand by you, body to body
Even though your heart is just out of reach.

No one said it'd be easy.
No one said anything at all actually.
No one really knows
That I desperately seek ways of recovery.

Everything you think you know needs to be forgotten.
It is crucial that your mind be open.
What I need you to know will be disturbing;
Harder to accept and, for me, to cope with.

Blackness surrounds the corners of my vision.
Sometimes when I stare,
My mind is filled with nothing.
While other times, with events that cause despair.

An immense amount of hatred lies within my heart,
Simultaneously an intense amount of love
That will never die down
Only to be discovered in this poem hereof.

Broken in ways I've never known
Triggered by something as simple as a familiar street
One that brings forth so many memories
Ones I wish my mind wouldn't keep.

Speaking the memories aloud burns
My heart, My throat, My eyes
Each time I move further down this road,
I can't help but turn around and hide.

Words hurt
Similar to how a fist can bruise skin
Words crawl underneath your skin and get stuck there
Twisting you from the inside
But what makes it worse is the person the words are coming from.

A mother telling her daughter she isn't pretty enough
Begins the journey of a girl trying to define her beauty
Caking her face with makeup to "enhance" or "alter" her appearance
Wearing clothes that barely cover skin
She does not know or see her beauty
Going through her life seeking approval
By doing things that defile what makes her beautiful
If she believes she is beautiful, then she is
No one else's opinion of her beauty should matter
Only her opinion of herself matters

Just one word can change a person's perspective of who they are and what they believe in

A boy telling a girl he doesn't love her anymore
Changes her perception of what love is
Whether she deserves it and who will be the person to finally give it to her
She pushes away man after man, afraid of putting her heart on the line
Afraid of  putting her all into something that's worth it
Sweetheart, just because one man hurts you does not mean the next one will
Don't miss out on your white knight because of a few jesters (**** fools).

Words hurt
They can cause bruises
They can open wounds
Even ruin lives
So be careful with what comes out if your mouth.

Darkness comes around
As it gets cloudy
You holding my hand
Saying you're proud of me
A tear falling down
Now it seems blurry
Would you help me, dad?
Or you'll watch me drowning?
Can we go back
To when we were happy
Feels like I'm dying
But I just say
I'm crying
Happy endings are real
But happiness
is always
Built on sb's sadness.

I look up to see wonder
exploring the view with listening eyes
while swimming the sky
I admire the moon in the backdrop
and discover my reflection


Jl 2017

Remember what I said last night?
Neither do I
I felt my belly, there was no kick
I had too much to drink
Left my feelings in the sink
In ugly bitter patterns
It's been 9 months
I still ache for this
What I'd be filled with
Nausea from a life
instead of a loss
If things worked out right