To love you is to burn:
a wildfire moving boldly,
desperately,
searing through my raw heart.

To love you is to drown:
my lungs opening
and collapsing,
flooded by your restless current.

Loving you and losing you
are two pains that bleed as one.

I do not
ever
cross your mind.

You occupy
every nerve
in mine.

It's getting dark now.
The tempest is rising from
underneath my skin.

You're miles away. And
it's driving me insane.

My bones are hallow and
my heart is becoming
weak and thin.

My hair is grey as dust
and ash. And i hear a
sad melancholy on
replay all day.

I daydream of my funeral
whenever i touch your side
of the bed and not find
you there.

I need you here now. This
distance is suffocating me.

My lungs are becoming
heavy and i feel the fiery
flames burning from within.

I need to jump now. To
reach your place. To swim
miles away over the ocean's
furious waves.

How could you do this and
travel to such a place. I
need you now and there
is no time to waste.

I'll take the risk and jump
from a highest of cliffs.

My bones are aching and
my body is shaking as I'm
craving your voice and taste.

Rescue me now.
Rescue me somehow.

Grab me by hips and pull me
away. Stop the wreckage
before it takes place.

I'll never let you travel miles
away from me like that again.

And i'll follow you wherever
you go even if it's outer space
or into the grave.

I love you dear. And I need
you near* ~

i'll start to get sad again
anxious for what didn't happen
desperate for one last first adventure
the feeling of being unsatisfied
and there is no place to put the fault
but on your own shoulders
because as your past is envious
your future is furious
why did nothing happen
did i not grow up fast enough
or did i grow up too soon
school will start and i will begin to watch
myself crumble

i will smash every clock
if it means that time will stop
because i'd rather be anxiously waiting
for things to fall apart
than for things to start

no one sees this part of me
the part of me that loves the irony of a watch
being tied to time from time to time
to match an outfit
when that time keeps ticking ticking ticking
away the days i have left to say
i am a put together person
look, i even put a watch on for sophisticated taste