Every time I think I know how much I love you
I'm wrong.
It is bottomless
Boundless.
It shocks me.
I've been loving all my life,
Loving to distraction,
Loving till I sobbed from the beauty of it.
I thought I knew what it was.
But I've never loved anyone or anything
This much.
It is too vast even to scare me.
The universe could expand tenfold
And it wouldn't be so enormous
Or so complete.
And something this important-
It could crush me, couldn't it?
It could erase me?
And yet I trust it the way I trust my own heartbeat
Because it has become that constant
A part of how I live,
Woven into my bones,
Coursing through my veins,
Filling my lungs as I sleep
Dreaming of a life with you.
I stare at the words every time you send them
"I love you."
And I know that even if I see and hear and feel them from you every day, every
Moment
For the rest of my life
I will never lose my aching thirst for them,
Or my awe that you mean them.
Those words.
I will never have enough of them.
I will never have enough of you,
Never close enough, never together for long enough, not if we live a thousand years.
I will never stop craving your voice, your hands, your thoughts and little mannerisms,
Your warmth beside me in bed.
You are the beginning and the end.
At night
You follow me into my dreams
And in the morning
You rise in my heart before the sun,
In my mind before I even know I'm awake.
If you will have me,
I'd rather be with you than ever go to heaven,
And if you'd let me
I would follow you into hell.
Please,
Have me
Always.
Have all of me.
Every time I think I know how much I love you,
I'm wrong.
It can't be known.
It can only be felt.