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sab ariana Oct 2020
i want to run and jump and land on that picket fence
i want the wooden point to go through me
i want my blood to splash into my neighbors tea
i want to smash my face into that lens
i want the glass to cut my ears off
i want nothing to be left of my face other than mushy and soft

he licked his lips as he killed me

it should happen now if i say it in past tense
i screamed as he cut me up
then he blended me and drank me from his favorite cup
a little gruesome sorry i thought of a million different ways i could **** myself while i was trapped with him, i would fantasize about it while we would be driving in the car together. i was always so scared though, too scared to even **** myself, well actually i tried once and failed and got beat for it haha ohhhh man. i thought for sure the only way out was him killing me and i felt like it was coming. the moon gave me the courage to escape though. thank you moon, literally it was a full moon and i was sitting outside...he was there of course he never left my side. but for a moment he went inside to get more alcohol and i spoke out loud to the moon i asked her to give me the strength to save myself and i swear to god i saw a shooting star fly across the sky. i'm alive today i'm grateful. thank you god.
sab ariana Oct 2020
i feel the pain of hunger
but i can't eat
i hear my stomach calling out to me
but i can't eat
i can possibly force down something sweet
but i can't eat
look at what you've done to me
at least i can still sleep
i havent ate in a long time but i do be sleeping for hours
sab ariana Oct 2020
meow meow
i just want to lie on your bed
i want you to give me a little pat
right on top of my head
yeah you can play your games
just tell me im a good girl
well, thank you for the treats
ill just lie here in your bed
oh, no i dont mind
drinking some of your milk instead
ew this one is gross hahahahah i spent a week in this guys bed we didnt leave the house at all and he played video games the whole time but he bought me a lot food we didnt even really talk i felt like a pet cat just sleeping in his bed all day he would give me good cuddles when hed finally get off his **** computer and come to bed at night ugh am i crazy or is he idk someone please tell me
sab ariana Oct 2020
please make it stop
the pain of a beating broken heart
why wont it stop?
nothing is moving
except the hand on my clock
when will it stop?
it's unbearable
terrible
maybe i can rip it out
or drive a stake through it?
something please make movement
everything is so still
am i alive?
have i died?
all the days they seem to blend
will this pain not go away
not even at the end?
god make it stop
**** me if i'm not already dead
someone please
i'm begging you take my head
sab ariana Oct 2020
darker than black
my brain turns
as every memory rips through me
torn tendons broken bones
i fall apart
as the icy cool smoke
escapes my tortured body
it ignites a blue fire inside me
whispers from my past fade away
i rise from the ashes
this time with a vengeance
that will burn anyone it catches
i am born again
sab ariana Oct 2020
my brain is rotting inside my head
visions of my death
creatures from hell
pestilence swarm around me
while screeching memories burst through
the sutures of my skull
i fall through the seven layers of heaven
back onto this earth
a ****** soul forsaken
i call out to god
but only hear back from satan
sab ariana Oct 2020
in a field of babies breath
i see my anael, my angel
her emerald glare bestows upon me
the end of my despair
beauty and love are mine
and i am hers
and through her fire
in magic chains to bind throw mad desire
in this waste land
i can feel her grace and
oh anael, oh my angel
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