i want to run and jump
and land on that picket fence

i want the wooden point to go through me
i want my blood to splash
into my neighbors tea

i want to smash my face into your lens
i want the glass to cut my ears off
i want nothing to be left of my face
other than mushy and soft

i feel the pain of hunger
but i can't eat
i hear my stomach calling out to me
but i can't eat
i can possibly force down something sweet
but i can't eat
look at what you've done to me
at least i can still sleep

meow meow
i just want to lie in your bed
i want you to give me a little pat
right on top of my head
yeah you can play your games
just tell me im a good girl
well, thank you for the treats
ill just lie here in your bed
oh, no i dont mind
drinking some of your milk instead

please make it stop
the pain of a beating broken heart
why wont it stop?
nothing is moving
except the hand on my clock
when will it stop?
it's unbearable
terrible
maybe i can rip it out
or drive a stake through it?
something please make movement
everything is so still
am i alive?
have i died?
all the days they seem to blend
will this pain not go away
not even at the end?
god make it stop
**** me if i'm not already dead
someone please
i'm begging you take my head

darker than black
my mind turns
as every memory rips through me
torn tendons broken bones
i fall apart
as the icy cool smoke
escapes my tortured body
an inferno ignites inside me
through a baptism of fire
whispers from my past fade away
i rise from the ashes
this time with a vengeance
that will burn anyone it catches
i am born again

i don't know if its love or lust
but you make me feel something
and that's rare
emptiness drugs and depression
are all ive ever known
to be fair
time goes by
i can tell by the colors of the seasons
i still don't know who i am
but at least with you
i have a reason

in a field of babies breath
i see my angel
her emerald glare
bestows upon me
the end of my despair
beauty and love are mine
and i am hers
and through her fire
in magic chains to bind
throw mad desire
in this waste land
i can feel her grace