Sitting in a crowded room
Listening to people talk
Listening to them laugh
I m here but I m not here
My mind wanders
My heart restless
Goes back to the time
I last met you
Teary eyes
Cracked voices
Helpless souls
Blaming fate
Soulmates departed that day
The angels were probably asleep
The almighty let that happen
Cruel world
Dancing demons
Broken hearts
Destroyed souls
And now sitting here
In a crowded room
Missing life
Missing love
Guilty being
Repenting soul....

no one loves me
but they claim they care
if they really did wouldn't they see

i am falling apart
fragile to the touch
yet they keep on pushing me

closer to the edge
and they think i can take more
so they push farther till i'm at the brink

it's like they know i can't swim
but they are going overboard
and they'll be suprised when i sink

Always puts them above
I will still  play pretend
We tend to accept love
That we think we deserve

Early in the morning,
Laying in bed,
light washing over me,
thoughts floating in my head.

Wondering what it’d be like,
Doubt seeps like morning glow.
What could I say to him?
What might he never know?

- Lost in Translation

I still love you
Stupid

even though
we are
the
lilies of the fields
he is my rock
he is my shepherd
and
i
shall not want
he
puts food on my table
he
puts clothes on my back
yes
God is able
when
faith is the light
because
he is with me

It's been hard.
I've always been on the other end supporting my friends
Being there for them
Now i feel broke

I've been having panic attacks at the mention of certain things
My heads a mess
I keep being told it's not my fault

But

Everytime i hear it
I say it in my head
I break down
trying not to lose it crying

They say it's normal
This isn't normal for me

So what am I now?

Never have i felt so alone.

All my friends have left
Fault of my own im sure,
For i never made the effort.
"Too busy, too tired" i said.
At first I blamed anxiety
But let's be honest,
I was just too lazy.

No family to be seen.
Packed their bags,
And off they went.
Still we talk in text, alas
no hugs through a screen.

Despite all this I was happy,
All this seemed as nothing.
As my girlfriend was my all
Best friend and family as one,
What more could i ask for?

Now we are no more.

Never have I felt so alone.