i slept behind green bars last night
my recompense for a brutal fight
i should've walked away you see
but couldn't calm the rage in me

the minutes moved by eagerly
and juxtaposed r e a l i t y
my hands tore flesh that wasn't mine
as energy shot down my spine

so here i am, the end i've made
my vision starts to slowly fade
for once i think i understand
the kind of man i really am

I know I’ve walked the surface of the earth so many times
my feet have touched the mountains like a hills and valleys’ tithe
I wake up every morning to a Sun that has my back
but I look for the people in the shadow that it casts

for ten percent of nothing I give everything away
my thoughts, my cares, my purpose, for a body that decays
I think I walked the surface of the earth to try to find
The Light inside The Sun that is alive inside my mind

The Time put clocks inside my skin to let my body know
I’d live inside an hourglass that spilled into my bones
I’d think about the beauty of just being here at all
and hold onto my ligaments until I knew they’d gone

The Time put locks outside my soul to let my Spirit know
I’d live outside the confines of the flesh to which I’m sown
I’d think about my duty and my calling in this life
and hold onto the parts of me that never weren’t mine

The Time put socks upon my feet to let me walk again
I’d put myself in places where I couldn’t play pretend
I’d think about the moments I decided I would live
and hold onto the memories I chose to not forget

the days i am reminded what it is to be alive
i climb out of my body through the thoughts that i contrive
there's nothing but deceit when you believe you're on your own
that life is death, is coming quick and you will never know
but there is something humbling about the pressing on
despite the state of everything convincing you it's wrong
if you can let your screaming head's cacophonies fade out
you'll taste the peace you once forsook for bellow's heavy shout

but what do you surrender to if anything at all
does every day put up a fight or just another wall
your hands are still your hands you know, despite the wear and tear
if you decide to honor truth and do this everywhere
the risk is something meaningless when fear is overcome
for nothing then, can shake away the human you'll become
it's not an easy path to walk for shadows will ensue
and every time the darkness falls it latches onto you
the catch is not a catch at all, a lie can only last
as long as you embrace the little voices of your past
the glory's gone, the war parades itself as something else
but let us not be made the fool of everybody's self

Beneath her ****** purple eyes the bandages unwind
Reveal the fruit of every hit she's taken to her mind
A stripe away from damages that cannot be undone
She whispers in her timidness, you are the only one
The seeker floats around the words she speaks into the night
And she can feel a quiet breeze solidify their flight
I'll be there soon, I'll watch the moon, I'll travel back to you
The bruises heal and she appears, she finds him withered too
I've missed the conversations we have carried through the years
A hope, a light, dynamic sounds surrendering my ears
I want to bounce until the day we reach the second stair
Repel the dark and sorry things that tangle up your hair
And so the strands were compromised, she let the pieces fall
Upon the fringe of sacrifice she floated through the wall

I picked up both my arms because my brother lost his limbs
and I continued fighting on and on behalf of him
The ground was in my blood but I had hands enough to be
the backbone of a country that I wanted to be free

I picked up both my feet because my sister lost her head
but I continued fighting on and on because she bled
Her blood was of my blood, I know I buried her too soon
the breath that I have left in me will honor her by moon

I think it unfair to The Poet
she said with her heart on its knees
to share only half of your person
when Love comes to fall at your feet
I think it unfair of each other
to hide what is heavy and blue
if talking leads halfway to nowhere
I’d rather stay home with The Truth
see, Nature’s The Scribe of my sorrows
The Knower and Maker of all
I’m safe when I share what is ailing
the every beat of my heart

you're in my head, I let you in
as far as I have ever been
and what you seemed to recognize
was all a wall of lonely eyes
I never hid the way i am
but people seek a sleight of hand
and if they find a game to play
another lie becomes a day
create, destroy or let it be
as though you are a part of me
I can't forsake the thought of you
not even if I wanted to
so here it is, the edge of dawn
I wonder where we could've gone

is a trap
that i don't want to die in

I put my thoughts on paper to remember where I am
to make the ink that’s running go right back into my hands
I’m privy to these words as much as anybody else
but they will do no justice if I keep them to myself

I put my thoughts on paper for another soul to read
to make the things that matter shed a Light for all to see
I’m just another human who needs love and grace and warmth
but somewhere deep inside me, I’m a  Poet’s perfect storm

I put my thoughts on paper to be closer to the sky
to wrap my heart around a faith that opens up my eyes
I know I have this body and it may not be a lot
but I can write a poem with its every single thought

We made our way through the sunflower field
I watched you collect all the seeds you peeled  
Their shells like a light in my hands I sealed 
So I'd never unsee what we are

As you moved along down the dainty path
I stayed behind, found a wooden lath
Its walls became host to the brooding wrath
That had forced you to wander afar

See, somewhere amid our excursion here
Came a moment that dimmed what had been made clear
We polluted ourselves with the atmosphere 
Of the mimic that hid in the air

But even if odds are stacked to the sky 
And we find ourselves in a cloud just as high
I have held on to the specks of our shine 
You'd entrusted inside of my care


I'll wait, you will see what we are

You carried me for many months and thus became my world
My hands are shaped like yours because I am your little girl
I could've let you go if you had said that's what you wish
But every word I heard you speak was opposite of this
I saw the life you thought you lost and held it close for you
Believe me when I say that's what I knew I had to do
I look at you the same today as I did even then
Before I ever breathed the air of everywhere you'd been
And there are times when all I need to do is go inside
To let the warmth of who you are wash over like a tide
The closer that I come to you the less I feel alone
I guess it's true what people say - some people feel like home

I'm covered up in layers of the other peoples' skin
And I am losing track of just how deep I've gotten in
To you it sounds absurd because you cannot comprehend
That hid among the living are the ones who will pretend
See, they can take a day and manipulate with ease
The shining of the sun and the coming of the breeze
For they will place their shadow over that which isn't theirs
And try their best to claim that the truth is everywhere
The eyes inside my head are the ones that follow suit
I'm looking into everything and I'm pining over fruit
It's only when I fail to remember what I've seen
That I can take a second to uncover all of me
I know this very well but it's hard for me to grasp
My vision fully blooms in the things that I see past

I cannot go, she's always there
To take my place without a care  
She's putting locks on what I've said
For once she crept inside my head
See I've become her source of prey
And I can't seem to get away
Her pace is quick and on she crawls
Around my feet, I trip and fall
But though I stumble all this time
I'll fight for what is truly mine
She may proclaim that she has won
But I will wait 'til time is gone
For then a seed will surely die
The one who's love has been a lie

have you ever read poets you thought you could trust
while they made of your body a temple of lust
if they portioned your pain into doses of words
they could smother your Spirit and feed you to birds

have you ever been rested enough to decide
you would rather be dead to your flesh than your mind
if you took up the weight of your struggle and fear
you could live in a body that serves as a Mirror

"you can do what you want with my body"
she said with his hands at her throat
"oh but you cannot touch what is spirit,"
"my life is not yours to be owned"*
all the time it has taken to speak up
and show you the woman I be
has been counted itself a commission
for everything you didn't seek
I will love you today and tomorrow
and look at the past without fear
rebuking the source of your anger
with all that I have while I'm here
see, my mother and father are with me
in Truth and in Spirit and flesh
and today I am stronger than ever
for you and for me and for them