I wish I knew
when I first met you
how much I’d hate
not having you.

The years went by
and your memory drifted
but now your one
of my biggest wishes.

You never know
how beautiful the
sky really
is until you notice
how it reflects off
of the crystal glass
water.

Sleepless I sit
Thinking of you
And all the ****
You put me through

I would have jumped
In front of a bullet
But you held the trigger
And decided to pull it

And just like that
We were no more
I closed my heart
And locked the door

Certain things in life,
situations, people, places,
find a way to dig
a home in your head.

No matter how much
poison you pour
down into their deep burrow,
they will always be there.

You block their voices out,
with that so oft needed
brick wall.
But eventually, the screams
find their way through.

Only to show you
how much louder and
stronger they have
become, whilst feeding
on every happy thought.

The clock is
ticking so fast.
It won’t be easy
letting it all go.

I dread the day when
so much has passed.
That I forget the ones
who helped me grow.

I would like to say
we’ll keep in touch.
And I would like to
think it will all work out.

But life won’t like
that too much.
This I know
without a doubt.

I’m trying so hard
to write about you.

But words can’t express
the way I actually feel.

So I’m going to stop here.