you came bearing words
a transparent heart
                      you said
bombs of love
exploding my defenses
gifts i embraced until
                      you drifted
memories flooded in
of betrayals past
i'd been there before
drugging narcissus
                      you played
further on my resonant soul
strummed to fine pitch
your favorite guitar
till bored with the tune
                      you cut
all the strings
i adjusted to silence
relished my gains, but then
                      you returned
to play me some more
and that's why
                      you see


i've bolted this door

Maybe I've had too much to drink
But your touch used to leave me
Dizzier than all these glasses
Only you're not here anymore
And alcohol fills the empty space
Like you, it's got a bitter taste
And I'll regret it in the morning

Rain falls quietly

The piano fades away

It's my kind of day

I stroked your hair with cigarette stench fingers
and drowned your lips with whiskey coated kisses....

I called you the moon
And then you walked away
Weeks went by and I thought
Out of all the games we play
This was the worst of the lot
Time and time again
I asked you to stay
I promised to make it worthwhile
We would be okay
But then you came back and I understood
It doesn’t matter what I say
Because you really are the moon
And you’ll keep changing, everyday

"You are my weakness
and if I let go of you,
people will see me break down
and they will know you're my weakness.

"And for more reasons other than that,
I will never let you go.
You're mine.
I will only be weak without you,
I will only be strong with you.

**"You are mine."