my life is sadness
As if you didn't already know that,
I'm a teenager after all
But this isn't a poem about a sad wasted life
It's a bland poem about a sad artist
Nothing I can ever do will make it meaningful
There's no point to it
I can create,
Write some profound or empty poetry
Make some genius or contrived music
Paint some ugly or beautiful pictures
gentrify my sadness,
make it pretty
make it art
It doesn't make it anything more than a black hole
a black hole that throws out a portrait of a boy with a million eyes that can't see anything
I realise now
that sadness
no matter how much I dress it up
Is sadness
And even if it's pretty or artistic
it's never going to be more than that
I realised how much of a little poseur I am. How terrible.