Once you lose someone.
To death or heartbreak.
You remember everything every single night.
Do your thoughts sometimes come to the end of wondering.
Wondering why.
Having the questions of what did i do to deserve this.
Thinking of the times you had.
The things they helped you in ways you didn't know you were lost in direction with.
The things you had when they were there.
The things you gained from their presence.
The fears the fought away.
Then they leave.
They end up to become gone.
But in your heart,
your mind, your soul.
You heart gained back the heartbreak,
The pain you had but it got worse.
Your mind became haunted cause their still there you can get rid of them.
They have all of you.
Your soul it became broken,
Your fears came back.
They are killing you inside.
Your lost again.
Your twisted.
You dont know where to look where to go.
Their presence wont leave you alone.
And you cry.
You scream for them back.
Your fears come to take you back.
And you have no one to fight them away.
And hold you while you cry.
How lost are you now?
How much do you heart inside?
Whos that person that is killing you inside from being gone?

The night sky.
Its wondrous.
As the sun slowly goes down.
The sky becomes a painting of beautiful art.
Inspiration by wonders of colors.
The sun slowly starts to set.
And a beaming sky of glowing stars follows along side the moon.
Then you have the simple light of the pure moon shinning down.
Then theres the still silence of the night.
The time in the deep night.
You go outside.
You hear nothing.
Its silence.
Pure silence.
A captivating silence.
You lay there.
In thought.
Its peaceful.
Theres no one and there's nothing.
Just silence,the stars, and moon.
Once so easily you finally at simple peace.

Life- Ive been asked what the heck life is?
What is the meaning of it we all die in the end?
Well here it is the slim understanding of it.
Yes we all die in the end of our time but what about in between?
All the memory's you can make you may think your not born for a reason but truth is you are.
Every single persons here for a reason may not know right now where you are.
But you'll find out within time.
There is no reason to take your life or say its of no value if you dont know whats coming in the future.
You may feel like giving up on life and as if you mean nothing and do not matter at all.
But how do you know if you've yet to live the future or have seen whats to come.
What about all the people you may think dont care for you or you think would do better without you.
But if you were gone you'd be hurting not just yourself and your life but everyone in it.
Everyone has times where you feel like you would be better with dying.
And being gone forever and never having to deal with anything.
Where you feel like your a waste of everyone's time but your not.
You make an impact on peoples life good or bad and no matter what
you do something good even if you did make a bad impression.
You give them something to grow on and others give you horrible pain
its your experience not anyone else's.
Your story is yours you are the author of your book dont let it end
and be a short story
let it be long have it be multiple books and not just one..
With every tear is an amazing person.
Every struggle is just a way to make you stronger may not be the ways we wish but in the end
your one of the strongest among many people.
With every memory there are smiles and tears but not matter what
both are remembered for some reason good or bad both they make
you YOU and that who you are.
No matter how you end up you are built up strong  to go threw the thing called life.
Just takes time to be unbreakable
and that means you will get demolished and rise up out of it.
You cant automatically know how
to read a book it takes time so does becoming unbreakable.
Your life isn't a fairy tale.
If i had a dime for how how many times ive said or ive heard others say they wished the could
die i'd be a billionaire.
But Disney doesn't direct your life they only direct movies something thats not real called slim happiness
-Mickie Rouxe-