I lay on your chest and listen to your heart pitter-patter like the falling of rain
That sound resonates within my ears and pulls me
Pulls me into a chaotic silence because all I hear is you
Like darkness you cover me
Like light you free me
I lay on your chest and feel your heart stuttering like a boy in love
But you are in love
And what's more, you're in love with a girl who's in love with you

When I was young grass was a calm sea
The wind was a melody sung from breathless trees
The trees were like ballerinas, bowing and swaying

When I was young I'd travel by foot
Hidden dirt paths were roads to hidden places
Leaves were like a canopy of small wings

When I was young I climb wonky stairs
The inside of a rustic pine tree was a home
The branches were like seats and tables

When I was young the gravel driveway was a river
Tire swing was the only way across the flux brook
Rope was like a tether to magic, effervescent and luminous

When I was young everything was not what it seemed

As if a pearl and diamond necklace was pulled from a neck
and spattered and scattered and thrown into black pitch
Filling a void so dark that it is in fact pitch black
The stars litter the sky with their ghostly light
For their light is a ghost of their forgotten life
They shined for no other
For no other was near
They shined for themselves to make the dark less dark than it appeared
They had danced in a grand waltz for millions of years
but they danced alone, in a cosmic working of gears
And when they die their essence is released
Their make up, their matter
Spewing their energy upon waves and waves
And then those vaporous waves become solids
creating life of its own, something rife for all time
We are a collection a energy
Merely essence made of light
We come from the stars, from the infinite night
And remember how stars could never touch, were utterly alone
Now in their reincarnated state they can hug, kiss
Be statically sewn

It creeps up on the land like a cloudless sunrise
Spreading its tendrils of ice ridden air
Gracing the leaves like a wisp, finer than smoke
The leaves turn to red, brown, and gold
As if kissed by the sun itself
They fall from their life
Settling upon the ground, waiting
For someone to walk by but yet
Turn around, giving a second glance
To pounce on the foliage
To relish in the satisfying crunch
Autumn is here, autumn has come
Named rightly after the Fallen, the flung

Laying outside on a spring loaded blanket
Underneath a dark sky that laid like a cover
With embedded jewels of white
Laying next to someone who shares the same thoughts
Like shocking each other with the same electrical current
Jolting alive memories, preferences, feelings
Laying under a moon set alight by the sun
It radiating beams of cold light
Yet we're both so warm

     Even though the time is gone
     The trampoline is empty
     The moon still remains the same
     Never changing, eternity

Here I go again
Looking in the mirror makes my own  heart shutter
It's like being porcelain but without the doll
Without the war paint, without the lip stain
I just look sick, just bones after all.
I glide on the tar black lines
With a flick of the wrist I become awake
I become focused, I become defined
But this is something I have to make.
Even then I look away
Not satisfied with my lacking appearance
Lacking brightness, lacking confidence.
Clearly having no brilliance.
I sigh
I leave
I tried.

Twinkling lights
Signs painted with gold
Screams fleeing from carnival rides
Secrets to behold

Wandering around, see the sideshow freaks
Stay away from Envy, Pride, and Greed
Children run by carrying goods and candy
Run to their mothers
Saying they're fine, they're dandy

Moving to the large striped tent
Inside to the music I went
Splendor danced which made magical eyes
Stay away from the edges
that's where torment lies

The lights are dimming, it's time to go
Vile perceptions are coming, it's the end of the show
I'll be back soon, I know I will
*Remember, stay in the light of the carousel