You're there when the wind blows
You're there when i bathe in the light of the moon
I can feel you
You're the one who keeps my sanity intact
You calm me down when I'm about to explode
So i just want to say thank you
Thanks for giving me a chance at a normal life

Feel like I'm losing touch
No longer knowing what's going on
Not even sure if it's important
Missing my memories
Times of laughter and comfort
So unsure of how things became this way
Distance
It's really always the cause
Distance can tear anything apart without a second thought
Let's reunite and return to our old selves
Together we can conquer the world

Why
When everything's okay
Why must you pull me back down
Why must you torture me with ugly thoughts
Why must you make me think about my past
About myself
About my future
Why won't you let me be normal
Everyone else looks so happy
Why won't you let me have that
Why must i suffer
Why

What is life if not one big lie
You're told stories of Santa as a child only to find he doesn't exist
He can't get you the pony you wanted, nor the spy kit
You're told you can be anything you want to be then later discover you can't
You can't snap your fingers and have enough money for the proper education to be what you want
You most likely weren't born into a role suitable for your liking
You're told that if you stay true to yourself you'll be happy
Yet, if you eat how you want, dress how you want, listen to the music you want, even love who you want, you will be judged and ridiculed which brings nothing but a downward spiral of depression
You're told i love you by a lot of people, but when you really need them where are they
You're told that you're lucky to live in the land of the free, however, we're trillions of dollars in dept and there are people in shelters because they haven't a home
So tell me
Where is the truth in life

You lied to me
Gave me the illusion of happiness
Then you thought it would be funny to torture me
You laughed as i spiraled into a drowning pool
You found pleasure as our memories haunted me
I want you back
You've changed
You used to be so sweet
Come back to me
Make me feel alive again
Or were you always just a lie
Were you ever real
Was there ever a moment when you were truly mine
If that's so, do i even care
Would i rather you lie again just so i could have some moments of ignorant bliss
I think i would

I can feel you inside me
Twisting me into something I'm not
Or at least something i don't want to be
You feed off my fear and my anger, but never my sadness
You want me to become you
Turn me into a strong yet evil thing
So you torture me
Make me see things i can't stand
Whisper to me my worst fears
Trying to make me break
Trying to make me give into my rage
But i won't
I mustn't
I can't be you
I have people who need me as i am and who would leave me if i became the thing you want
You've at least succeeded in making me paranoid
I see you everywhere
And when i don't see you i can hear you
Laughing at me
Telling me I'm alone
I hate you
Go away
Go away
GO AWAY!

my life is devoid of all purpose
everything I thought I knew is gone
my memories haunt me
but yet I'm forced to push forward
to live a life not my own
I feel hollow and unsure
what is my goal
what is my life trying to strive for
I see these is horrifying creatures
but I know they're a part of me
it's almost comforting until I realize how sick and twisted that must make me
I fear my past and of what I will become
I know the beast inside will only grow stronger
I try to contain it but I can't do it alone
I used to be a strong girl but it's taking over
I'm losing myself
I can remember a sweet and innocent little child happy and smiling
she's still there but she cries inside
she's dying and it scares her
is there anything I can do
is there any hope