I go to some meetings
they are meant to help

but all I feel like is a scope
of a presence coming through

a following of all the lives
that people live to them selves

coming out in the open
weighing down everyone's own individual loan

You sit by the screen
Waiting for life's demean
I come to stay
To show you a way
As the hours go by
I hope to keep you by my side
You don't look to the past
Just hold fast
These beautiful days
So mother you can still say
All the things we need to hear

We weren't born from
an estranged time
we were born with
our hearts and our pride
we do not stuff out flames
but rise for protection
we were not mind washed
in school but taught to listen
we do not use for our
own understanding but for humane

We are more than lines
and borders or boundaries, connected
we are united as a cause
to stay together in peace
we are here
we are hope
we are home.

it looks as though a new home will be home
as a dandelion changes so does the seasons

leaving my families abode
may have the real reason

to stay in a place that is welcome.

We sang
And laughed
And drank the wine

Without knowing tomorrow’s lines...

another chapter begins
a new one, being friends
three in a row
three for a blow
nice to meet you
you're so new
what's your wish
to feel bliss?
god I hope this is the start of love
because it's like you came from above
to help and save
not being naive
you're so cool, you're so sweet
I'm so glad that we did meet

Was a hard time in a teenage girls life unrequited love, attempted suicide and her mind out of line

It was a cold winter morning and she was shaking again
the sun lit up the baseball field like an angel playing again

Smoke surrounded me like a cloud of exhaust
I was exhausted of feeling this way
I wanted out of my own mind, out of this thing called life

one date ago
one day ago

my heart was confused
separated by two

love for both
doesn't satisfy my thirst
need for it
doesn't satisfy my hurt

love for both
doesn't help my worth
need for it
doesn't help my mirth

one day ago
one date ago

Where in the world
have the owls flown off to
not a single one in view

Evidence of a strange encounter
in light of another side
live on for it, forward

Soap and dip in tune
Love and laughter needed
for a simpler light's hue

I'm sorry to be writing on you.
I know the indentions
can be tough
Will sombré be enough.

We just wanna stay where we are
normally functioning
unwistfully listening
Level willed to the earth

Ladders incompletely climbing
in front of stairs that seem
impossible to walk on, sometimes
This tundras just in our minds

We seal the deal
underneath wandering times
not invoking questioning ones
Simply staying in our place

In a group homeliness is sometimes tired to find
work in short hours of the day
in the long late ones of the night
we'll stay crisp in the trying times

underneath the lines that others
pronounce towards each other
we do not want to bander
instead we try to work together

On coure;

Vines grow
In distinct forms
In a life Everleading
For written meaning
With tombs everleading
Strife forms meaning
With undergrowth  ♡
                             is bright
Lyme
Tyme
Substance
Constance
Mother's true time.

Chrome
Lumensent
Paint, please.
Remembrencé

a young girl longs for the flames of her soul
burning and yearning to touch
        a                                   whole.
light                ­                 be
    that                      to
             illuminates

I feel
I think
I am

This is where I stand.

I wish
I dream
I be

This is me.

I long
I seek
I need

Please accept these three.

Thin band wrapping around your wrist
Daring to cut off the circulation
Its embodiment feels safe and bliss
Never wanting to part from combination

Have not dared to find the knife
That knows my final intention
I could never truly be yours
With my lonely condition

there's a spirit that stays with me
two entirely and I remember
when there was a different memory
I could not dwell on or it hurts my heart
I know not to draw on those few moments too much

for a thousand years or more there's life this being
comes and goes the promise of more is saddening

there's a love that is there and it's almost as if
my fingertips could brush the dust of years forgotten
a case of amnesia, a mind of jumbled up phrases
the kindness of a smile, the silence of the night
the chance to know more about every day of my life

to live on and on
to save and protect
to write and re-write

... I ask for simply the truth.

the hymns that play,
in my mind's relay
remind & sway
virtue to the way


without reminder
of thy melodies
what would be
forgotten ..

I feel as though we are changing
into beautiful beings
that might not need each other.

It's scary
and enticing
and tearing
me into pieces.  

will you hold onto the idea
of sharing our lives
or will you leave me
thinking why?

we find
a mind
lost in the dark
searching for a part
not looking for a friend
trying to mend and defend
a love so real
it's not enough to kneel
a heart departed
from a life of the hardest

I feel like I am drowning
going deeper and deeper
no oxygen to save me
just the smoke at the end

I feel like drowning
there's no light for me now
only the shallows
where the predators prowl

I am drowning
it's my last attempt to swim
but my arms are tired
and someone stole my fin

You must climb down
to really see the beauty
of the hidden wonder

in that town
just a kiss
from the canyon

holds the most majestic
Aqua-filled fall
of streaming water

you shrink when you see it
incapable, small
to the grandiosity

a place where water flows
a place so normal
and yet begs to not be seen

In the bottom of the canyon
lies a dream of an aquamarine

the lost love of the sea.

rules of our heart
include not being pursued
more so in art
creative interlude
we brave
we strong
we free
living under the cover
of  a mask
not being a lover
but a friend –
is all some can ask

I fell and was caught
now I stumble and I'm not
how do I move without you
I saw clear, now everything's new
which way is right
who will not spite
why do I write

it's only an escape
from superman's cape
ducking and diving
revival of the surviving
everything's new everything's clear
everything's blue everything's here
how do I be bare

beneath the heat
on the beat

loving
learning

hating
hurting

I'll meet with you
If you want to

quietly
mightly