People think I complain to much why do you think I'm more to myself ? Because I'm tired of having people saying don't worry about it don't stress out about it or you'll be okay every time I'm like.. be in my shoes for a week feel my struggle. But then I'll get the but I have it worse because this or someone could have it worse I'm not trying to make people feel sorry for me I want somebody to listen and give me motivation advice give me a spark to light my fire again.

It ***** being me you know? Being sprung doing everything humanly possible to put a smile on your face looking at my phone every 5 seconds thinking you finally responded but never have? Waiting and waiting five minutes then ten twenty an hour.. you try not to think for the worst but when it keeps happening you just get nervous.. your heart starts to act up.. and your doubt takes control of this train going deep into a wild rollercoaster.. you try to past the time but you still check if she finally responded but still nothing back.. you see that she finally sees the message but never replies.. waiting.. give minitues.. ten.. twenty.. and hour.. nothing.. and you sink deep into a depression. Looking waiting for a a miracle to happen but never comes. And now you lay down on your soaked pillow just barely holding on having that little spark of hope but .. as the night goes by.. so does your belief.

I want truth
I want love
I want passion
I want loyalty
I want a relationship.
I want to wake up every morning knowing the woman I'm with loves me with her heart and soul.
I want to live a life where no secrets or strings attached.
I want to feel secure knowing the woman of my dreams is mine till the end of time.
I want to be her knight in shining armor  
As I give her everything her heart desires.
Maybe I'm doing to much?
Maybe I'm crossing the line?
Maybe I'm just a hopeless romantic that can't help but be everything  to do anything for that special girl..
Man.. why does love gotta make your heart go on a rollercoaster

When you let go of what hurts you everything starts to fall into place just gotta have the Faith  and the will to reach the persuit of happiness

Where a love song can't explain everything I feel. Where I try to write down emotions you make me feel.
but ..
can't get the right words coming out like it should..
Where should I begin?
You got me fantasizing you and me
Going on dates going in love and deep just you and me.
Not gonna lie I never thought I would hear myself saying these words but you got me sprung got me in love flying in the sky like a pure dove.
I never really knew what to say just knew I was lucky to say lucky to be your one and only future king. Maybe I'm just jumping the gun enjoying the fun but from the heart I just want us to hold hands and run.
Run into a never-ending dream just you and me where we see our dreams and goals becomes more then just words.
We're a team were a couple were a castle filled with endless love and I know it's a battle. A battle harder on our own but I know together will always make it and change it to a forever. Like I said maybe I'm just jumping the gun enjoying the fun but I do believe in this dream called you and me because you know what? We could fight we could scream or shout but at the end of the day I can never life another day without you in my mind and your voice playing that sweet melody that makes my heart melt to two. That's why forever and ever more I promise I'll be your knight in shining armor and you'll be my princess that saves me from myself

Sometimes I hate falling for a girl. Not because I love to date like Taylor swift but because I put my heart on my sleeve. I do everything to anything to make that special girl smile. I'm a hopeless romantic I can't help but try to be that knight in shining armor but be treated like a royal fool. What hurts the most is when your being led on given false hope thinking that there's a chance. I know its harder then it looks and even harder to tell the truth but nobody deserves to go through there phone every five minutes thinking it's them but never getting that call or that sweet good night text. I was born and raised on Disney movies I can't deny it. I just wished we knew what to expect before falling into false hope