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Aug 2015 Jenni

she swears she is doing better these days

Aug 2015 Jenni

Deanna

she swears she is doing better these days

happy to nonfunctional
    one eighty degrees
I go from blazing fire to
    a mid-July freeze
my mind is doing fine but
    my body isn't
living instability
    this isn't pleasant
wearing a blindfold at the
    edge of a great cliff
misstep, suddenly falling
    I could use a lift
I start a day rock-solid
    by the end crumbling
smiling and laughing but then
    alone and trembling
Can you explain me to me?
Can you explain me to me?

Jun 2015 Jenni

Senses

Jun 2015 Jenni

L Marie

Senses

There is no touch, but sound and no taste, but sight
And I can catch a fleeting whiff of your scent
As you pass by me, trading it for my breath
That you steal, just like all of the unpaid rent
In my mind, the millions of thoughts you engage,
Your voice louder than any words on a page.

#love #senses #thoughts #crush #sight #touch #loud #sound #scent #taste

Jun 2015 Jenni

the meaning of life according to 16 year old me

Jun 2015 Jenni

d

the meaning of life according to 16 year old me

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- Moments. Tiny moments. Big moments. Unexpected moments. I've-been-waiting-my-whole-life-for-this moments.
- Seeing the world through the cracks in its mask; directly in its eyes (or where the holes should be at least).
- Accepting the all-round unimportance of humanity to the world but giving the world to humanity. There is no definition of who or what a good person is. So hold positive qualities (like love, honesty, rebelliousness, compassion, affection) in your palms and give your true self to the world. Tell yourself you are good. In turn, you then will be.
- Treat the Earth nicely. You have a short stay and after all, you're just part of an energy system. Be nice to Pluto too. God forbid, it could use it.

#love #life #people #humanity #you #me #earth #meaningoflife #theworld

May 2015 Jenni

the thing is

May 2015 Jenni

Deanna

the thing is

well
alright
so, the thing you have to understand is
I can't think straight
the thinking thing the thing
is
what
happens if I can't think straight
I can't think
I can't
well
I can't
well
I can't think of anything
but you
what happens if I can't
think
of anything
but you
so
I mean well
the thing is
the thing you absolutely
have to
understand is
I'm terrified of commitment
so
when I say this I mean
you'll know what I mean
the thing is
what if I
what if you have to understand
the thing is
I'm afraid to even say it
write it
type it
think it
commitment

the thing is
I'm terrified
and I can't think
because I can't think of anything but you
and I'm terrified of commitment
of you
but you
the thing is
what if
I fall in love with you
and I'm terrified
of you
the thing is
what if
you fall in love with me
the thing is
what if
what happens
is
the thing
that happens
is
I fall in love with you
and
you fall in love with me

afraid to even write it
think it
feel it
live it
commitment

#love #fear #*** #commitment

May 2015 Jenni

palpability

May 2015 Jenni

Deanna

palpability

Simplicity is missing a physical object
something concrete, felt with the hands
But what is missing an abstract concept?
Possibility, felt with the heart?

Because I have felt him in my hands
Because I have known him as my friend
And as a result I miss him
in a way that makes total sense
And as a result I miss him
in a way I cannot explain

Because I miss the tension in the air
the gravity pulling us together
the fear that we might suddenly kiss
the excitement that we might suddenly kiss
I miss the infinite possibilities
tangled strings tied between us
I miss glancing at him
to find him glancing at me

I could say that I miss him
but that would be so incomplete.

#***

May 2015 Jenni

<< ( soon you too ) >>

May 2015 Jenni

jeffrey robin

<< ( soon you too ) >>

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death is come

( you too --- little poet child )

First ------ raw pain

( have you felt it   ? )


And a sense of lovelessness unexplained

( I'm sure you know  that  one ! )

A feeling of uselessness / depression / no energy

( fading away )

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Dying

We are all ( simply ) dying !!

•

So

Despite all our rantings and numb loving

and self abusing

The fact remains

•

We are dying

•

We are being slowly and systematically poisoned

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We are of the population set to be reduced

So that others may be sustained

••

MURDERED

( if you will )

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We should say goodbye to one another

Or

Truly
Surely

Sincerely

Finally meet and say HELLO

May 2015 Jenni

Zen

May 2015 Jenni

Amy

Zen

It wasn't until I was 20,
feeling down and out,
that I realized something important.

Self Worth Matters.

I had spent so many days
drawing my worth from others
wasting my time for 20 years.

Life does not offer a guarantee
that everyone we encounter will stay.
The only one we live with forever,
is ourselves.

I realize now that I shouldn't have spent all that time
all of those years
putting my happiness into other people's pockets.
Happiness comes from within, not without.
Never forget it.

#sad #happiness #night #late #buddha #zen #encounters

Mar 2015 Jenni

Untitled

Mar 2015 Jenni

Deanna

Untitled

life goes
on
so they tell me
two freshmen
gone suddenly
they ex-
plain
how we should keep going
without our
humanity showing
god for-
bid
our grades should suffer
just like all
of us - like they were

#suicide #loss #grief

Feb 2015 Jenni

you meant tonight

Feb 2015 Jenni

Deanna

you meant tonight

Standing in the snow
We kiss on the Harvard bridge
With two cities smiling at us
Because I had stopped
To appreciate their beauty
But got distracted by yours
And you tell me
That you hadn't stopped
In case I was cold
And my laughter
Shakes your shoulder

You said you'd walk me to my door
But the last few feet take twenty minutes
As we talk
Finally we kiss one last time
You tell me to keep in touch
And begin to walk away
I say, "you too"
It takes you ten more feet
Before you clarify
"I meant tonight"

#w