Poison me
Bite your fangs into me
Grab my heart in your hands and make me watch the blood seep through your fingers
Because I love it when you control me
                                             I mean hold me
I want you to grab my waist and dig your nails into the soft skin
Make me feel something
Even if that something is painful
And I'll probably regret you
But ****, does painful look like stars

Icicles drip from the edges of your car, but we're drinking up fire within
I lay back, feeling the clouds swirl around on the inside of my head
I'm slow, I told you,
I can't move too quick - I might just create a hurricane
And white rain is slowly falling, blinding your windshield
and talkative strangers who might see me sip smoke from your lips
I was almost tempted to kiss you
But almost isn't close enough
Better get me home before I do
And before the scent of you melts into my jacket
Before my mother smells the fire on my tongue

Everyday, I draw nearer to my freedom
yet draw deeper within myself
I grow closer to my future
           and farther away from time
I am closer to my dreams
closer to my goals
closer to my independence
closer to my happiness
And yet so far from reality
That I'm brushing my destiny with my finger tips

I don't want to exist

and yet I can't give up

Darkness
Black clouds and coldness
I was floating in a thick mist of regret
Wanting to forget everything I ever was
I drifted farther into the abyss
The voices in my mind hissed and dug their claws deeper
Tears of red running smoothly down my head
I shut my burning eyes and covered my face in my hands
But my fingers were unwinding like ribbon

But as I saw my form, breaking away
I was suddenly scared of the dust I might become
And lifting my vision towards the stars
I saw the sun
And her bright hands reaching down for me
As my flesh touched her warmth, she sewed me back together
“I will protect you,” she promised “If you will protect me too"

There's a hummingbird inside my rib cage
And it's dying
And I can't decide if I want it to keep drinking the red sugar of my blood
Or let it starve and wither away beside my bones
For I fear I may be lonely without it
For I fear I may be empty

He craves empty bottles, she craves to fill me
In chains and delusions they don't want to be free
And every Sunday, like church, they're down on their knees
To each other, a god the other can't please

My Ophelia
Rip yourself apart for me
Fill your mouth to the brim for me
And I'll outline your weightless body in violets and rue
Destroy your mind and cross every line
And I'll lay down inside of your grave with you
Never more will you be lonely