To whom it may concern, I am writing this to you and I'm praying that your listening
To whom it may concern, I am trying to hear you but it sounds like you're whispering
To whom this may concern, I lost my brother and my best friend
To whom this may concern, I will live with this pain until the end
To whom it may concern, I hold my head up high and walk with plenty of pride
To whom it may concern, even though I look normal, I still can't believe how bad I feel inside
To whom it may concern, I am tired of seeing all of these bad horrible moments that you see on TV
To whom it may concern, when I see the truth and the destruction it has on everyone
To whom it may concern, I have to admit that unfortunately there will be these people with hate and I plan to stand instead of trying to run
    To Whom it May Concern!

I awake each day and start it off with myself saying a prayer,  I go about my day trying to be civil but there's always someone out there trying to get weak people to feel some kind of fear, I can't stand people who think that they have any say into a strangers life, despite what the person has including a wife, I dear you to approach me and try to get me to fear you because I will take you and break you and that's not half of what I am going to do, all of the bullies need to go because you hate yourself that's the fault of your own, I'm tired of hearing that you been through this and you been through that cuz the truth is a matter of fact that you growing up and clowning around and bullying everyone just to put them down, your the one who needs a hug and needs some love but continuing what your doing is going to end up with you all alone crying to yourself cuz nobody cares about you or even calling you on the phone, I hope that one day you will be able to see that if you stop being a bully and thinking about yourself then you can be happy, but if you don't change then don't ever expect that you will be normal because to the world you will always be strange, you live you learn and if you don't then in hell you will burn!

When I awake in the morning to your beautiful face.
I thank God everyday that I have made it to this place.
When I'm with you there's not one thing that I would change.
When I'm not with you I feel like my whole life has been rearranged.
You've broken my heart and that's the worse pain.
I spend my days with the thought of you driving me insane.
I know that nothing and nobody is ever going to be perfect.
But I have to admit that if it came to loving you then I'd be your number one suspect.
I pray for the day that I can hold you again.
And I pray for the day that your once again my best friend.
So until that day I will continue to dream.
That you will be in my arms just like a cone that's filled with ice cream.
Prayers are made and god answers them.
You're my number one prayer since I can remember when.
Please God respond to me and guide me down the path.
And lead me to her so I can put this pain in the past.

You awake in the morning to see their face.
You prepare for the day to end up in that special place.
As you spend some money and make some special plans.
You are praying to yourself that everything does not fall right from your hand.
Nothing is more perfect then starring into the eyes of the one you love.
Nothing is more perfect then saying goodbye with a soft kiss and a beautiful hug.
The moments that catch you up and you hope they last forever.
And you pray that this moment will last no shorter than never.
All you can do is sit and pray.
And hope to god that they'll be yours on that one special day.
So keep high hopes and never let them go.
And the only way that you can lose it is if you let yourself get to low.
So stay positive and keep your hopes high.
So at the end of the day, nobody can say that you didn't really try.
God bless us all and maybe you will see.
That God looks out for us all and that means you and me.

It's the morning of Christmas and I awake to see.
No Christmas tree nor a Christmas present for me.
I sit down and I wonder what happened to Santa Claus.
All I could think was that he must of been stuck at one of the stores.
I made some breakfast and as I sat to ate.
I realized that I am the one that fell and broke my plate.
I'm thinking to myself that this just isn't my day.
No matter what I do there's not one person who cares what I say.
It's time for the family and I hope things get better.
If I didn't know for myself, I'd say that Santa is fatter and a lot more redder.
I can't wait to get home and just forget this whole day.
I guarantee if you were in my shoes that you'd be crying and trying to pray.
So be happy with what and where you are.
Take advantage of the moment and keep it trapped in a jar.
If you let it go then I'll feel bad.
Just knowing that you're on the path of the one that got me mad and sad and I will remember this all after I write it down in my brand new pad.
The one that Santa brought me in his big red sack.
If I seen the big red fat ******* I'd do more than give it back.
I'd tell him to shove it and shove it up his ***.
So good day and Merry Christmas to you all.
Make sure that you stay safe and don't drink and stumble and continue to fall.
** ** ** and a Merry Christmas.
That's not just from me but from all of us.

I sit each day and sometimes I wonder why.
I sit some days and can't help it but think of memories that makes me cry.
Sometimes I walk for miles at a time.
Sometimes I sit and pray that all will always be fine.
Most days I'm alone and all I can do is think.
Those are the days I stare into space for hours without one blink.
We all have our pain but just deal with it differently.
We all have our fears that we wished we'd never have to see.
Thank the Lord for his love for us all.
Otherwise we'd never get up once we fall.
So many words can be said to touch our heart.
One great thing is it's never too late to make a brand new start.
Keep your head up and know that there's always a solution.
That's why once a year God has blessed us with a brand new New Year's resolution.
  Keep hope alive and never give up the fight.
All you need to do is have faith and God promises that everything will always be alright.
Love to all and especially to you.
You are the special one that God has chosen to give that special gift too.
If you have yet to figure out what that may be.
Just take a knee and say a prayer and when you open your eyes it'll be miracle that you'll see.
         God blessed us all nomatter what.
   So remember each day to say thank you and always reach up.
   You can have the world and everything in it.
  Just don't ever give up and always be prepared to win it.

Some families keep in touch all year round.
For some families, holidays are the only days that they'll come around.
You have to hold on and hold on tight.
It's so much better to have your family year round instead of that one holiday night.
I understand that people grow along with their own family.
Bringing them all together is a perfect picture that should be shared for everyone to see.
There's nothing better than getting together for all of the holidays.
Just sitting and laughing and enjoying all of the new days.
Everyday that past and your not there.
It gives me a feeling inside of some unknown fear.
If I had one wish then that wish would be.
Is that all year round we can enjoy being a family.
I wish you all luck and a Merry Christmas.
I just know that like last year my whole family will be missed just like this.
Everyday that your gone we grow further apart.
But all of our child hood memories will always be keep deep inside of my heart.
Remember all the good times the ones that got us through the bad.
And all of the happy times that got us through even when we were said.
We didn't have much but we always had love.
To always be reassured we never missed a chance for mom to give us a hug.
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year's to all.
Be with those special friends and family at the dropping of the ball.
          Happy New Year's

No matter what, I try to sleep well
Every night I dream of something that has to do with hell
Alone all the time and with so many thoughts
At times forgetting everything that I was taught
To many bad memories have passed in my life
So many bad memories just keep on coming despite not having a wife
I've tried and I've cried when it came time to be quiet and here by myself
There's a lot that some don't know and alot that is known by everyone else
I'm not ashamed nor am I embarrassed  
But 1 things for sure and that's that one day I will reach marriage

One look
One glare
One smile
One touch
One dance
One love
One heart
One tear
One day
One chance
That will help us to the One day
That I get down on One knee
For that One special person

Once there was a day,
That I got the news that you were only 9 months away,
I didn't even know if you were going to be a boy or girl,
But I new that second that you were going to change my world,
I looked forward to getting to meet you for the very first time,
The moment I saw you I new everything was going to be fine,
I had to make a choice that would forever change our lives,
No matter what I vow to be there for you until the day I died,
Everytime I see you it just melts my heart,
As I watch you grow older you become more and more smart,
Not to mention that you're so beautiful that you are a princess,
One things for sure and that's that my heart is your permanent address,
I pray that when you're older that you understand,
All I ever wanted was to give you the very best that I can,
I know you know that I love you so much and so much more,
Just hearing you say Daddy melts my heart to the floor,
I love you Shya and I'll never let you go,
And I will always be here for you and I know that's something you'll always know,
I'm glad that your life is all in order,
And I'm truly blessed to be able to call you my daughter,
I love you so much and I'll see you soon,
I miss you so much so please stay tuned,
And this is for you and for you only,
Because without you I feel so lonely,
But I'll keep you in my heart and there you will stay,
Not only today and tomorrow but every single day.

Sometimes we smile and sometimes we cry
Sometimes we just don't know nor do we even know why,
Sometimes we're blinded and sometimes we see
Sometimes it's you and sometimes it's all me,
Sometimes we run and sometimes we stand
Sometimes we hide and other times we except the consequence from the man,
Sometimes we talk but cannot be heard
Sometimes we can get lost after giving our word,
Sometimes life is good and sometimes it's bad
Sometimes you blame yourself for loosing everything you've ever had,
Sometimes our heads speak instead of our hearts
Sometimes we speak dumb instead of using our smarts,
Sometimes I'm so excited and or very surprised
Sometimes I wish I didn't see what I seen with my eyes,
Sometimes we set goals that we just can't complete
Sometimes we can't make it but have walked so much feet,
Sometimes I just want to be by myself just sitting home
Sometimes I sit there for days trying to figure out my newest poem,
Sometimes you'll learn a little bit about me
Sometimes you're just not going to be able to comprehend what it is that you'll actually see,
But there's one thing that is true and it always will be
And that's the one that's writing these poems has alot that he wants everyone to know the truth so that they get their own chance for the truth that they see.

Why must I feel this way
Why does no one listen to what I have to say,
Why has everything changed
Why do I feel like I'm so strange,
Why must pain exist
Why am I scared to take the risk,
Why doesn't anyone pay attention
Why do I always have to learn the lesson,
Why must I hold back from speaking my mind
Why must I do things in your own time,
Why can't you just let me be me
Why can't you just let me be,
Why am I so taken advantage of
Why am I the only one to show love,
Why can't I live a normal life
Why can't I find a wife,
Why do I care about all these things
Why am I the only one that thinks it stings,
Why even bother because you won't listen
Why am I still left alone and only wishing,
Why do I waste the time to be a friend
Why can't you see that this is the end.

Family is a bond that should never be broken
Family is a place where you can be free spoken,
There can be hurt and there can be lies
They'll be things that you will see with your own eyes,
There can be happiness and always plenty of love
Always someone to turn to every time you need a hug,
There can be laughter and the occasional tears
But one things for sure is that someone is there to help you face your fears,
There can be annoyance and there can be pain
There can be some things that drive you insane,
But if there's one thing that I do know
It's that the bond between family love is not a love you'll ever let go,
So cherish each moment and feel blessed everyday
For having a family who loves unconditionally each and every day.

When I was younger, I never understood that you live on after you pass,
I thought it was a saying and not a fact,
But one day I was driving along,
Just me and my grandpa before he was gone,
I remember what he said like it was yesterday,
So as always I was interested in what he had to say,
When I was 13 and we were driving on the highway,
He said pay attention to not only the car in front of you but the one that's in his way,
Till this day I do that when I'm on the road,
So he carries on through me from all the advice that he told,
So you're never forgotten and will always live on,
Not only through me but through everyone.

I awoke from a nightmare to see my dream
Every word I say is not what it may seem,
A dream so breath taking but now I can't breathe
The suffocation feeling is a feeling that needs to leave,
At one point I feel so high that I can fly all the way past the big blue sky
But then something passes and it caught eye,
I turned and said who are you
They gave me a glimpse and then continued to do what they had to do,
I went to the king and said what's going on
He laughed and giggled and said that this is the place you come to when your sole is gone,
I was frozen, scared and totally shocked
Not realizing that it was all a dream from the very start.

Every year on January 1st is considered to be a new year
Just an excuse to celebrate a day and drink some beer,
It provides us with a feeling of starting something new
But the truth of the matter is that we all fall back into what we'd normally do,
The dropping of the ball and the kiss to that special someone
Trying to leave in the past all the bad that we've done,
The truth to it all is way over rated
And the efforts we try are very under estimated,
If one really new when someone is sincere
Then they would show love everyday and not just on a new year,
Live each day like it's your last and love each day because time just goes way to fast,
So take a deep breath and just go with the flow
And before you know it, you'll get to where you've been wanting to go,
Take this year and make your changes
And for once in your life try to stop and give a hand to some strangers,
When you do something life changing for another
It makes you feel better and like no other,
That's the magic behind it all
So try to remember that the next time you see the dropping of the ball,
    Happy New Years To All.......

The very first time I seen her face
It took me to an unknown place,
A feeling so good that I can't explain
But now she's gone and I can feel the pain,
So many things that I would do different
If only I had an idea of where she went,
Every day that passes is another day gone
This feeling inside prevents me from moving on,
I know she's special, especially to me
I wish for another chance so I can get her to see,
Where ever she is I hope she's okay
I pray that she knows that I think of her everyday,
As long as she's happy then I am too
Even though I'm not complete it's all I can do,
In my heart is where she will stay
Not just forever but forever and a day,

As I lay down, alone again. My body still exist to see me to the end. Even though I'm safe, I still stay trapped, this life I'm chasing and will never get back. The rain don't stop, not from the clouds above but something like a rain drop from tears of love. I speak to nobody except for one, the one who stood by me and that's my mom. Friends come and go but when it comes to family it's the strongest force that won't let go. Follow your heart and follow your dreams, do it together so together you can find out what love means. Staying true to yourself will help you get through anything else. Take a deep breath and say a prayer and tell god for once you don't have fear. Love don't hate, relax and deal and of course love your chosen fate.