It's better
that I don't hear your voice
every single night
Anymore.
Because when I do
Finally
hear it after
months,
It's as if you
called me up
just to say
Goodnight
one more time.

And *it's better
that we don't see each other
nearly as often
as we used to -
because
Every
Single
Time
I reminisce
on what we used to do.

And now?
Nothing's changed.
All I (still) want
*is you.

Since my puppy died I decided that I need to start living more
For her
I know that's bazare because it was just a dog. She wasn't though.
She was the reason I fell asleep
The reason I didn't go through with plans
She helped me calm down
My best friend
I know its sad and pathetic that a dog was my best friend
I don't care though
Cause watching her paw go slowly limp
Holding her white fluffy fur for the last time
It was heartbreaking
It broke something
But it also flipped a switch
I need to learn to be okay with myself
Cause you never know who is going to leave or when they will
But when they do
You need to still be okay.

It was a good day,
I was woken up by a pat on my head,
a hug around my body, and a kiss on the head
My brother brought water over for me.
It was a good day.

It was a good day,
I spent the whole morning with my other brother, my mom even came home early to help me up. I couldn't get up but it's ok, my brother can't either.
It was a good day.

It was a good day,
my brother came home like he always does, lately he's gotten home and laid with me. It's nice to have someone petting my sore muscles. My other brother tries but I usually stay a little bit away just to mess with him.
It was a good day.

It was a good day,
they brought me outside but I couldn't stand up, it's ok though because I was with my family. When they brought me back inside my brother laid with me again, he seemed sad and he was crying I couldn't understand why.
It was a good day.

It was a good day,
my dad came home and laid with me for a little. Then they put me in the car. as I felt the wind blowing on my old face and my brother petting me, it made me get the biggest smile.
It was a good day.

It was a good day,
they brought me inside and I had new friends around me. Everyone was laying and petting me, I was so awake and happy.
It was a good day

It was a good day,
They stuck a needle in my leg but it's ok my whole family was with me so I was happy. They were all crying and seemed sad so I tried to make them happy like me by smiling. I'm starting to get tired now but my dad, mom, and brothers are all with me.
It was a good day.