As I was growing up
You was always there when I scraped my knee

Even though I burnt the kitchen
Trying to make us something to eat you still loved me so much

remember the surprise salad
You never got mad as you picked out bread ties you was so encouraging

I'll never forget the way you laugh
Always being goofy at the right time you always had that craft

I'll never forget when I was scared of the movie earthquake
You took your time and explained how they made the movie after that I was able to sleep without heartache

Remember that story I wrote about why I loved my dad
It won tickets to worlds of fun you was so proud of me and it wasn't half bad

You always took pictures
Black and white was the best ones I always loved the mixture

I loved going camping
Especially with monkey jamming

We always had fun the best was when you started falling
Your shoes went in two different directions  great wobbling

As I grew up into a teenager
We didn't always see eye to eye you always keep me out of danger

Then I grew up had my own family
I always seemed to swim up the stream

You was always there
No matter where I was you would always pray

Just like Prince said
I never meant to cause you any sorrow, I never meant to cause you any pain

I only wanted you to be proud
Never to be ashamed of me

Thank you for being my dad
I love you forever and always

my depression has become so apparent that it goes unnoticed
that thought terrifies me

ive become so good at acting like i understand how my mind works
maybe so good that it believes me
ive gotten so bad with words
that i cant recognize my own writing

its getting harder and harder to scribble out just one letter
its been months
im not doing any better

I would put three sets of leaves;
a bud, one green and one brown.
To show our world has seasons
That perpetually go around.

I would put in an expensive watch
To show that time is precious,
And so that when it stops working
They'll know that time is not endless.

I would put in the Sacred Texts,
To show that man has a Spirit
But I would add in a strict warning
That they should not abuse it.

I would put in a massive blanket,
Made from fabrics across countries in Africa
To show that diversity is the spice of life
And our world is beautiful because it has colour.

I would put in some earth wrapped in gold
And water in a bottle of pure silver.
To show that the true treasures of our planet
Are the grasslands and the valleys, the deserts, the rivers.

I would put in the West African Drum
To show that inside every person,
Lies an ever beating heart
That dances to life's rhythm.

my mind doesn't work right when it has to
and i come home to sulk
never anymore, to do
and yes.
i am angry

i am too sad to cry
too angry to yell
not ready yet, to speak.

i wish my hands could speak for me
but they're bound
and with every struggle,
it is tightened

im starting not to see anything beyond this
i blink and im here again
pinch myself and im still here
you always wake up from sleep

and alright, I don't have the guts to **** myself
my mother has drilled hell in my brain like a nail
but hell isnt a place
its a feeling
a presence
or a lack there of.

and so yes
i am angry.
ive played so many songs on wordless strings
strung chords to sound like sobbing
and for what?
i am still angry
and tomorrow i will be angry
i will blink, and still
ill remain angry
and when you wake up from your slumber,
you will stretch out the feeling in your bones
relish in the last seconds of moonlight
you will look outside,
see the sun,
see the people,
see yourself,
and you will still be angry.
you will be played unfairly and be angry.
you will always remain the way you are.

it a scary thing to face alone,
anger, or bitterness.
but perhaps the scariest of them all,
is the length we will go to escape it.

be angry
be bitter
but always play fair.

She hangs crystals from the sun
Always dreaming

She streams her dreams
From magical strings
Yellow ribbons hang from the sky
She climbs higher each day
Hoping tomorrow will birth yesterday
She climbs, she dreams
She hangs crystals from the sun