It was 8:45 after my bathe
I dried my *** and put my favorite moisturizer
Looking at my reflection I’m feeling ****
So I put red lipstick on and decided to wear my see-through lingerie

I went to distract my husband playing virtual game, PUBG specifically
He drew attention to me — his hand is caressing my face, you’re gorgeous he said
He then pressed his lips against mine and started talking...
Talking back to his playmates about what strategy are they going to use
So I went to bed to write this lol

She’s trying when she’s stressed
She’s trying when she’s tired
She’s trying even it’s not her fault
She has all this questions that she can never get an answer
Until she starts loving herself a little more
And remind herself that there’s nothing wrong with her

I think i'm fine but i'm suppressing
To hide weakness and pain is to pretend
But in reality of my desperation,
I crave for attention

Attention to be heard with my silence
But sometimes silence is so loud
It makes me want to disappear

It's this feeling that I can't explain
For even though i'm not alone
I still can't find my inner peace

I know this is the problem.. i am eating—kept on eating. I am overeating. My mind said stop but it feels like something is controlling me to keep feeding myself. Why do I always do this when i am longing?

I am procrastinating.. I can’t stop. I feel lazier more than usual. That’s what i feel. My mind said i need to fight it but i am too tired.

Do you think my mind is tricking me into thinking my mind wants to do it but the truth is, it really is the one controlling me not to fight it and I should be listening to my inner self and not the mind so that i will be able to control over my mind?

I am trying...
I am striving...
... to keep myself alive every single day

They say I love you
But can't handle you
— limpidly vulnerable

To understand you
Will never happen because
They don't really wanna stand by you

An immature act, they will see
Like buggered child
Who gets easily hurt with petty *****

During high jinks, you'll see them
But never a glimpsed during crestfallen

Because feeling pain and getting hurt
Is childish for them...

Whenever you feel sad, remember to look up and see the moon. Somewhere and someone is looking at it too. You are not alone