Jinx
Not it
The game my heart plays
With your disorienting love

My heart screams
I love you
My head interjects
F**k him

His eyes are a different color
His hand in mine feels odd
His words sound familiar
His strength more obvious
His love more secure

i hope she knows
someone else loves you
more than she ever will

I am kind
I am compassionate and understanding
People know when I love them because I love hard
I am caring
I listen
I acknowledge
I give feedback that doesn’t hide the truth but isn’t harsh
All these things I am
For others
But not for me

The hardest part is not that I miss you
The hardest part is not that I think about you constantly
The hardest part is not that I fantasize about you
The hardest part is not that I still love you
The hardest part is that you don’t have the courage to fight for me
The hardest part is realizing that although you act like a man, you’re still only a boy
The easiest part is realizing I’ve outgrown you and your insecurities

in the end
after you’ve exhausted every word
when it’s time to move on
you do

I have my mother’s hands
She’s always with me
I am her
She is me
We are one

means allowing yourself to give up
means breaking your own heart to save whats left
means forgiving
means gifting yourself a chance to heal

You gave me the moon
You gave me the stars
I brought the sun
Together, we made our world spin
Apart, I am still the sun

I love you. Still.
Forever a secret
Between my heart and
The silence that engulfs me

your strength means
pretending i don't matter
you tear me down with your rejection
that is not strength
strength comes from love